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| quote: | Originally posted by HardTrance81
I don't know what to tell you.... you have to fnd that kind of "good" in yourself..... you have to do at least one thing for yourself that makes you feel good..... for me it a glass of expensive wine, and 30 minute car ride listen to some good smooth music with the windows down..... makes me feel like a king..... last year i was most likely the most difficult person to deal with (my gf still thinks i am, but am getting better) I was diagnosed with bi-polar manic depression... i used to have huge mood swings and go ballistic... one minute iwas creaming another laughing, another crying.... they called them episodes... i would get frustrated and black out for minutes at a time..... fighting with people..... my friends start hating me and my family kinda gave up on me..... i found out it was more like inner demons i had to face.... so i starting making something of myself.... i whent from having no job and selling drugs and running errands to making 35,000 USD a year working full time and then paying for my own school and attending, full time at night....and all of this happened in one year. it has not even been 365 days yet..... it's obvious you body has a drive to do something in life, and may not be doing anything or the right thing and your body knows, so that pent up energy turns to angst...... you don't have to make flower cut outs or paint pictures of butterfies you just have to learn to spend your energy, negative or positive it has to be used up, in the right place.....
i guess my point is... take some time off... and try some soul searching..... my best advice is life is what YOU make it, instead of fighting people, fight life and it's little obsticles... when you get knocked down, get up, and finish it! It will make you a better person, and when you notice you can accomplish one thing, you feel happier and that alone becomes a high, you move on to bigger things, better jobs, houses, cars, what ever... it's not about possesions, it's the challenge of getting them that is fun.... just get up and do it... it's hard to explain with out sounding like some overly positive modivation recording but thats the truth..... just give it what you got..... |
great post!!!
and here i thought all rational thoughts had left this forum...LOL
thats what i live by...finding at least one think that you can do good for yourself on a regular basis...for me its getting my nails done...sounds real stupid and trivial and materilistic but its what ive done for years.
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