quote: | Originally posted by MrJiveBoJingles
I'll probably be moving to the east coast next fall. I guess that will cure this itch that I have for at least a little bit.
It's worst when I'm here in the university library, around all these people who are near my age and some of them probably have similar interests and possibly could be friends under the right circumstances but I don't really know anyone since the class I started out with has already graduated. Half the time I'm in here I want to scream my head off and run around like a crazy man just for the sake of letting out this tension that has been building in me for years. But like the alcohol that I gulp down twice a week, doing that would only bring relief for a short time, and then I'd be known as the crazy guy who screamed his head off rather than just a normal nobody who sits in the library a few hours each day.
I don't look forward to the future. I see my life gradually getting more cloistered and boring as I get a full-time job after I leave school, maybe hanging out with some people from work but never really feeling free to open up to anyone, stupidly getting drunk on Tuesday and Saturday night as I wistfully meditate half-consciously on my feelings of having missed out on something, of having not gotten some memo that it seems most others did, of having not given all my options a fair shake. I don't plan on blaming my problems on anybody else. I've made my own bed here. |
It isn't too late though. As they say, better late than never. Just go do things that require you to step out of your comfort zone. I know that is easier said than done, as I have been in your exact emotional position pretty recently in fact. About 2 or 3 years ago I felt exactly the same way, except I wasn't in school or anything. Just felt like life was going nowhere and I was not happy with what I was doing. Or more so what I wasn't doing. Just get out and do things. It helps.
edit// The thing that has really renewed my outlook was getting away. Traveling even though it was only to Toronto.
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Dual exhaust tips on dual exhaust = QUAD EXHAUST = 300 gain in horsepower. Duh |
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Undies with a dickhole aren't good for guys. Your balls can get caught in them. That's why I prefer to go over the gate instead of through the fence. |
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