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I'm in my senior year this year and as far as I'm concerned, the sooner it finishes the better. In the last few years I did mess about with mates and stuff to an extent, but now I'm just fed up of the whole thing, the whole popularity hierarchy that I hoped would've faded a bit by the last year. And I'm not going out to parties and getting drunk or any of that fun stuff, that's where the heirarchy comes in again, you can try your best to get your foot in the door but some people like me will just end up fucked.
High school (I think that's it anyway, been trying to put my finger on what's causing this), going in there and hardly anyone even bothering to say hi to me, and hearing people go on about getting laid, their part time job, their girlfriend/boyfriend, their drunk weekend, the car they're going to get, and all these things I'm just not experiencing for various reasons, is really starting to depress me, and I've never thought of myself as easily depressed, but for the last wee while I've been feeling like shit a lot more often than I'd like. Hopefully I'll be off to uni next year, that looks so much more fun, not having to put up with shit from parents, less of the popularity and preconceptions, a good balance of freedom and responsibility.
So overall, I guess highschool's great fun either if you're popular and get invited to things, or if you're one of these people who simply don't care for these things, but for someone like me who's stuck in between, it sucks  I mean, I don't really fit in with the popular people or the nerds.
It seems that I'm just not a highschool person, different people are more suited to different environments.
I'm gonna try my best to enjoy this year though, afterall I'll be leaving the shithole of BBHS and I'm sure I'll miss some aspects.
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Just when you thought this was over, it had only just begun...
Last edited by DjSimonB on Oct-18-2004 at 17:04
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Nathan Fake - Outhouse (Valentino Kanzyani Remix) 
! i like bunking lessons, failing tests and not giving a shit, getting drunk underage etc... ah, it rocks at the moment!
