psy-t, everyone comes on here for different reasons. some are more serious than others. yea, thanks captain obvious, right? lol

i am obviously one of the users who comes on here to simply fuck around, or to be emo, because, quite frankly, in my peronal life, i am the one who my friends come to for advice and reassurance. i simply listen and take it all in and give advice...and pretty good fucking advice if you ask me. i don't ever "burden" my friends with my bullshit, so i burden you guys instead, and i'm thankful that you all have put up with it, even if most of you make fun of me from time to time. but i really don't care about that because i dont get caught up in what a bunch of strangers think of me. i DO care about what a few of you guys think of me though, and you should know who you are. i'm not gonna sit here and lie and be one of those people who says, "i don't give a fuck what all of you think of me". it's only partially true. i care what people think of me, and those people are the people whom i have respect for and care for, which is a small handful. the rest of you with the comments, i honestly don't even give a second thought to. i know who i am and what im really like, and i know i made my own bed here on TA, so i shoudl lay on it. i know a lot of you think i'm this coke snorting dumbass whore, but whatever. that's honestly the funniest shit to me because it's so far from the truth.

also, the reason for me to come on here and fuck around is because in my day to day life, i am "intellectual" or working or being "smart" and this is my way of just cutting loose and being a big smart assed goof. i dont feel the need to come on here and have intellectual debates, i chose to ignore those. just not my cup of tea when i'm already at work, thinking and busting my ass. i'm already working hard at my job...two jobs to be exact, and if i want to have a nice intellectual conversation about what's going on in the world, i usually just call my dad.

so there...that's my part in this thread and my reason for existance in this site, and sorry for stealing your spotlight but get over it

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Originally posted by notelfreak man i can't believe i tried to come off as responsible in that other thread, i am so full of shit just don't tell anyone

I expect to experience doomsday with you guys.

I am not sure if most of that was intentional or not, but, uhhh...

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oh yea and so i dont understand what's going on by the way. are ppl accusing psy-t of trying too hard to be like arbiter or something? lol


arbiter is overrated, no offense. he seems to just spit out a bunch of encyclodpedia references combined with some cynical wit. i mean, i enjoy reading what he says, but i still think he's overrated.

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Originally posted by notelfreak man i can't believe i tried to come off as responsible in that other thread, i am so full of shit just don't tell anyone

oh and moral hazard wins.

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Originally posted by notelfreak man i can't believe i tried to come off as responsible in that other thread, i am so full of shit just don't tell anyone

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Originally posted by Slylee so there...that's my part in this thread and my reason for existance in this site, and sorry for stealing your spotlight but get over it

as much as i enjoy the spotlight, having this thread full of long, detailed posts is just as good (well okay, maybe only almost as good )

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well just thought i'd put in my 2 cents. you wrote a book so i thought i'd write one too. lol

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Originally posted by notelfreak man i can't believe i tried to come off as responsible in that other thread, i am so full of shit just don't tell anyone

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Originally posted by Psy-T firstly because it was mandatory, secondly because i never identified with my nation or its goals (nor its so called enemies), found a reason to identify with it, or a desire to stay here.

Well its the first step along the way into becoming a smarter person really, feelings of nationalism just tend to cloud people's judgement on the world at a holistic level as they're too close to the coal face. Your second step though will be a lot harder and that's coming to terms with the fact that sure, your current location might not be something your happy with, but anywhere else you go you'll end up finding similar problems to some extent. By the time I was 24 I'd lived in 4 countries for a fair bit of time, worked, lived and travelled through another 45 for shorter periods and I came to the conclusion that people are fairly much the same at a fundamental level, they just get shaped in their attitudes and opinions by their environment.

In your case it was rebellion.
But that isn't you per se, it's just a product of your environment that you didn't agree with and went against the grain of to find some small amount of temporary happiness and outlet for anxiety at least make yourself feel empowered that you could say no.
I won't write a book to give you any advice, just something to think about if you decide to go running around looking for your place in the world, except to warn you that perhaps it doesn't exist and you should just find somewhere you can at least put up without turning into a complete miscreant as that will limit your opportunities later on.


And no, I've got no idea why I'm still here 7years later! I've barely got anything in common with anyone here and 95% of current electronic music in the trance type of genre seems to suck horribly!
Guess it's that 5% of little gems that make it still worth it.

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Originally posted by Lilith

i'm not fooling myself with any notion of utopic magnitude. by now i know almost exactly what the trade off entails (among the major challenges, for example: sorting out permanent residence within 2 years of arriving - at best), and i'm entirely up for it.

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psyt i didnt read your thread. So are you quiting TA? if so can i have your screen name? I'd like to have some harmless fun with it.

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Originally posted by igottaknow So are you quiting TA?

no

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1st post needs more embedded Adagio for Strings

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