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damn..i took a beat down there, but I deserve it. I know what Ive done is wrong. There is a good reason that I am single now, and its my choice mostly. NONE and I say none(except one who is gay) of my friends who date alot have stayed faithfull. Everysingle one of us has cheated.
I dont think its ok..there is a reason I puke afterwards, I feel guilty as hell, and for a good reason. And of all those times I cheated, the only time I stuck with the person was when the cheating was a peck on the lips, and then I stopped it cuz I cared about the girl I was with. Most of the time I would cheat, and then break up with the girl. Am I proud of what Ive done? HELL NO. Am I ashamed of it..certain cases yes. Others no. I do feel bad..like wrenching pit of my stomach Ive gone to the clinic to find out its anxiety bad.
U only know what Ive told you layla. The rest of the details (ie in one case, telling the girl, I need more room, U r suffocating me and having her giggle and say Deal with it, while kissing me on the forehead..she may as well have been dumped there..but im not about to dump a girl in the main hall @ school, so that night, I cheated on her. Less than 12 hours later I was single and not single again. or one night while @ a party when My girl starts going @ it with some other guy in front of me...who is also taken. His girl and I end up together..next day it was all normal(damn..im a swinger)
Layla, what u said hurts. damn..the last time I cheated on a girl was...in grade 12. Now im third year college. Im not about to do it again. Ive messed some people up, and been messed with myself, and I dont really enjoy either. Especially knowing that somebodies views on life changed because I cheated on her. Little side note, I have yet to have sex while cheating..just kissing and fondling. I wouldnt do that, im not a whore who fucks anything on 2 legs.
As for my 'excuse' u r right. I know several guys who are in it for the long run. My best friend is quasi engaged and already planning his wedding(he is 19) Others are just in long term relationships, but they arent serious about it. They werent serious relationships(except the one who I didnt know I cheated on till I was told so)..I dunno what to say. Im not defending mine or any other guys actions. Its a bad thing to do.
if ya still think im a dog..well then whatever.
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Retired TA.
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