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| quote: | Originally posted by Frenchie
There you go assuming stuff now.
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I was making a general statement, not specifically directed to you. But I still think that every one of us has probably dismissed a comment like this at least once.
You don't seem to understand that if a person is considering committing suicide, that is an indication that they have a mental error somewhere along the line.
Normal, rational thinking people do not kill themselves (unless it was an accident).
When I was 16 my father passed away, shortly after which my mother remarried to a psycho maniac who I hated, my long term boyfriend and I broke up and then my grandfather died. With this, I proceeded to spiral down into a deep hole of misery. For days I went without any sleep, and wallowed in my own pool of emptiness and sorrow.
One night, at 3 am in the morning, I decided to go wander the streets. No sleep, no one to talk to, no where to turn.
I came to a street that overpassed a highway. I looked down at the moving cars, and I realized that I could feel better simply by jumping off. It wouldn't really matter because there was no one left who cared about me anyway.
One foot went on the ledge, and I started to lift my weight up off the ground, and imagined myself "flying".
However, for a fleeting moment amidst my devastation, I had a rush of common sense, a drop of sanity left in my head, and I stopped myself.
I sat down on the sidewalk and cried. I probably sat there for 2 hours just bawling my eyes out, on the side of a street, all by myself in the middle of the night.
Finally, I walked home and went to bed. I slept for about 3 days straight.
If I had followed through, if I had jumped, would you think that I was making a selfish move? Would you think I was stupid? I was at one of the lowest points I have ever been in, in my entire life. Yes, I didn't do it, but only because I was lucky that I hadn't completely shut myself out from reality. If not for that split moment of common sense, I wouldn't be here writing this right now.
Sometimes things aren't as easy as you make them out to be.
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