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| quote: | Originally posted by emc^2
Sorry, a bit long but may be worth a read...
So, here goes.
Not entirely from a left field, I hope... but here's a weird thing. So, my wife has been on a personal crussade after finding Jesus. I've decided to reserve my warm spot in hell by pretty much telling her to pound sand, preferrably the kind JC walked on. Her rhetoric really gets on my nerves. Anyway, I spend all day in my basement studio, which is where the Tarrantinonian plot joins into the original topic.
"The Basement" or dungeon has become a pit for most of the junk I've collected over the years - it has my "studio" in one room and bunch of crap in another area - really messy part of the house. Think US Marine Corps obsticle course x100 + live land mines. For who knows how long, I've been collecting gear - e.g synthesizers, various knick-knacks to make it all work, etc, hoping one day to actually put it to use. I've been at it since 2000... not a single finished track has emerged from the bowels of my so-called studio. Meanwhile, I work very hard to pay off the credit card bills for all the junk I collected over the years, while racking up new debts, getting other stuff to make the studio even more "cool". Meanwhile, I work 70 or so hours a week to pay for this shit, while having no time to record it. Or when I do get time, I have very little desire, as I'm too tired.
It PISSES me off to no end, thinking that I have all this stuff sitting there, while not using it and not having the time. So, I've become 100% prisoner of my purchases. Going even further still, I have to hear from my wife that I spend no time with our kids because I'm working all the time and show up late from work. While at work, I think about the fact that I really don't spend much time with my kids, about all the unfinished stuff in the basement and how difficult it is to maintain financial sanity with all the debts and bills piling up, while not having the will power to dump the stuff I don't use and turn it into cash.
About 3 months ago I purchased a used 42" plasma, which has been earmarked for my "studio". It was relatively cheap - $300.... I even spent (spontaneously) another $150 for a wall mount that I did not use and had no time to return. I ended up getting a pair of free aluminum rods and mounted the LCD on my desk for a total cost of... $3.58 (for nuts, screws and bolts). Being very proud of making this progress in my studio, I invited my wife to take a look at my cool set up. In her old, sinner days she'd say "Wow, that looks awesome! Nice set up, can't wait to see it fully hooked up." This is how it actually went:
Me: "Check it out, ain't it cool?"
Her: "Hm.. interesting... I guess"
Me: "you don't think it's cool?"
Her: "Cool. As in 'cold'. so, this is where you plan to hang out?"
Me: "well, sometimes. I hope to do some tracks one day".
Her: "Ah. yes. Tracks. Got alot of stuff here, might as well."
Me: "Plus I can also watch football, play some xbox without annoying you"
Her: "Yeah. Great"
Me (scornfully): "of course, we can always get rid of everything in this room and just turn it into a little chappel, where we can just come and pray to JC. Would that work for you?"
Her: "Well, at least you'd have something to show for it. You'd be emotionally and spiritually happier... and your soul would also be safer as well"
Me: "Well, I'm glad you think of my soul's well being. Personally, I operate on a consumerist primate level, that's where I dwell."
Her: "So I gathered. Well, wouldn't be a bad idea for you to spend some time with your son tomorrow too."
Me: "Sure. thanks for the lecture, I'm glad we had this conversation. I certainly did not expect such an anti-climatic cold shower, but thanks nonetheless. Now, let's each enjoy some time alone, AWAY from each other."
Out she walks. I fire off my newly installed LCD, connect it to my laptop and go on TranceAddict to cool off a bit. First thread I open - this one. Click on the link above and find a passage from Torah, dealing exactly with what OP posted about, which definitely resonates with me... and left thinking: "If I were religious, I'd actually take it as a message from above."
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it sounds like you are a shit dad and even worse husband.
tracks and gear do not come before your kids sorry.
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