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Originally posted by fiya that's so true. i was down to 87 pounds at one point and i still thought i was fat. i would weigh myself 6 times a day and look in the mirror a tonne of times each day, even take pictures of myself from my digicam each day just to prove to myself i was getting thinner. it's the thought process, your "core" (no pun intended) belief. if you think you're fat, you will believe that no matter what anyone else says. everyone around you tells you you're too thin but you just think they're lying. the doctors tell you you're going to die, you think they're lying. you go crazy because you think everyone is conspiring against you (they forced me into medical care) then i saw pictures of myself at my sisters grad and couldn't believe it was me, skeletor (my brother would call me that). that was a life-changing thing for me. anyway, i'm thinking this post is too "serious" for the cor. i'm expecting some retarded reply so go ahead.

yeah they'll come
and its very weird for someone who's never had an eating disorder to understand it
same with any sort of psychological addiction
back like 5 years ago i was very depressed, and as a result became pretty damn anorexic
i'd have like one small meal a day, if that
keep in mind this was right during my growth spurt, and i'm a lil over 6' tall
if i had eaten well during those years i'd probably have another few inches

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Originally posted by fiya that's so true. i was down to 87 pounds at one point and i still thought i was fat. i would weigh myself 6 times a day and look in the mirror a tonne of times each day, even take pictures of myself from my digicam each day just to prove to myself i was getting thinner. it's the thought process, your "core" (no pun intended) belief. if you think you're fat, you will believe that no matter what anyone else says. everyone around you tells you you're too thin but you just think they're lying. the doctors tell you you're going to die, you think they're lying. you go crazy because you think everyone is conspiring against you (they forced me into medical care) then i saw pictures of myself at my sisters grad and couldn't believe it was me, skeletor (my brother would call me that). that was a life-changing thing for me. anyway, i'm thinking this post is too "serious" for the cor. i'm expecting some retarded reply so go ahead.

I totally agree with what you said..

My girlfriend struggles with an ED as well. It's so sad to see such a beautiful girl think so little of herself. She's definitely gotten better, but it's still there. She's starting to stop purging and instead eats small, healthy meals and works out a lot. Every now and then, though, she'll binge and such.

I'm just happy she's progressing. She's going to a counselor and all and she's really starting to improve. I also like to think me being there to show support helps her out a lot too.

What I really hate is all the people who think people with EDs can just get over them. They don't (and I don't, fully) understand what goes through the minds of those with them.

i am usually EXTREMELY good at putting myself in other people's shoes and understanding where people come from even if i can't relate, but i'll tell you what, eating disorders are the one thing in life that i will never be able to relate to. i just do not understand it for the life of me.


i love food so much i can't imagine starving myself or making myself throw up a bunch of good stuff i just ate. i love eating and i love all food. i like cooking too...pretty much anything that has to do with food i love.

and when i look in the mirror, i swear i have like reverse anorexia. i constantly criticize how skinny i am, and get annoyed when i lose 2 lbs and excited when i gain 2 lbs. lol

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Originally posted by notelfreak man i can't believe i tried to come off as responsible in that other thread, i am so full of shit just don't tell anyone

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Originally posted by Jackson Does Lindsay have a sister perhaps?

too lazy to read the damned thread so dunno fi this lame joke has been made allready

Yeh she does, a twin even you never saw the parent trap?

[QUOTE]Originally posted by Slylee

i love food so much i can't imagine starving myself or making myself throw up a bunch of good stuff i just ate. i love eating and i love all food. i like cooking too...pretty much anything that has to do with food i love.


+1, except for the cooking part.

wow

Linsdey used to be hot...

whats with the hair ? she went from a 9.5 to a definate -6 in my book

heres another one... you know its 2005 when Famous actresses and millionares are starving themselves to raise their self esteem

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Originally posted by RickyM Next thread - trance for listening to when you are halfway down the stairs in your house...

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Originally posted by Exodus17 Linsdey used to be hot... whats with the hair ? she went from a 9.5 to a definate -6 in my book

Has it ever occurred to you that your intial assessment of 9.5 was incorrect and she was always -6?

i blame all of you that like all those brazillian models...you people are ruining women

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Originally posted by Slylee i am usually EXTREMELY good at putting myself in other people's shoes and understanding where people come from even if i can't relate, but i'll tell you what, eating disorders are the one thing in life that i will never be able to relate to. i just do not understand it for the life of me. i love food so much i can't imagine starving myself or making myself throw up a bunch of good stuff i just ate. i love eating and i love all food. i like cooking too...pretty much anything that has to do with food i love. and when i look in the mirror, i swear i have like reverse anorexia. i constantly criticize how skinny i am, and get annoyed when i lose 2 lbs and excited when i gain 2 lbs. lol

Yea it's kinda hard to understand I guess. I love food so much and love to try new things but when I had an ED the reward for me was tied directly to my love of food... it was all a challenge, how little I could eat, and watching other people eat the things I refused to made me feel good, like I had won or something. I would look at someone and want their food so bad, but I would be saying inside "You fat fucking cow, go ahead and eat that, your stomach is gonna get so huge, mine is nice and flat, you fucking pig" ... it wasn't fun lol... so you see it was all about challenging myself and proving I could have control over what I eat...

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Originally posted by Slylee i am usually EXTREMELY good at putting myself in other people's shoes and understanding where people come from even if i can't relate, but i'll tell you what, eating disorders are the one thing in life that i will never be able to relate to. i just do not understand it for the life of me. i love food so much i can't imagine starving myself or making myself throw up a bunch of good stuff i just ate. i love eating and i love all food. i like cooking too...pretty much anything that has to do with food i love. and when i look in the mirror, i swear i have like reverse anorexia. i constantly criticize how skinny i am, and get annoyed when i lose 2 lbs and excited when i gain 2 lbs. lol

you can't relate because you're a naturally thin person. if you weighed just a lil' bit more then the rest of the girls, you'd probably feel soooo self concious. i bet it REALLY sucks to be the "fat girl" ya know?

and my sister is just like you. she's really very naturally thin...and people always accused her of being anorexic, but she just was naturally that way ya know?