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| quote: | Originally posted by liquidxxd
when i get in a k hole, i dont know, its really nice, i cant move and my visions all fucked up but i just lay there and enjoy, |
That's not really a k-hole then, just the effects of ketemine. Since you can see. In a k-hole you'd have no concept of reality at all, or of your own body.
I'm not really the expert since I've only had one, but since we're discussing it I'll tell the story. It happened from just one line of K, a much lower dose than I'd taken before. I don't know if it was my state of mind at the time, or just really strong stuff. After I took it I was sitting down writing stuff down, I looked up and thought "shit I'm fucked" then keeled over and ended up laying on the floor. For about 4 minutes I had my eyes open, it's hard to explain the feeling. You know in movies where they show the perspective in first person then that person gets shot, so they just kind of throw the camera on the floor and leave it there, still, at a wierd angle? It was like that, I could still remember taking the ket at this point, I assumed it had killed me as I couldn't move at all, I was just fixed on one point on the floor. Then the floor opened up and I felt like I was skining into it. That's when I became completly disattached from my body. My essence was in a void (at this point I had no concept of what it's like to be "alive" and have a "body") and there was a disc there spinning. I wasn't on the disc, I had no body, it was more like being a floating eye or somthing. I was being taught about myself by somebody higher than me. Not a God, more like a teacher showing me my faults and showing me who I really was. The horrible part was I didn't like it one bit. I don't know if you've ever done ket then looked in a mirror, but it's not a pretty sight. Your brain focus's on all the imperfections in your face. Every little loose hair, shaving cut, everything that's not "perfect" about you is amplified 1.000 times over. It was like that but with my psyche. After what felt like about a week (honestly it did, after it happened I had like a weeks worth of memories but these died after a sleep) things started reversing and I found myself back on the floor staring at the same point. After a lot of effort I managed to sit up, but keeled over again and it happened again. This happend about 5 times.
At the end of it all, it felt very much like I'd died, been shown the error of my ways, and given a second chance. Which is why I don't touch the stuff any more. I'm not religious or supersticious but something like that makes you think.
A lot of people say K is knowledge in a physical form, and that the body is just a vessel in which to transport it.
You probably know all this already but thought I'd type it up for the benefit of others.
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