to TA's worrying...he wont do it...close to all suicides are never successful..

now, to geo...i could write up a BS long ass post..but i wont..but since im diagnosed with severe depression, extreme social phobia (social anxiety disorder), OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder), and ADHD...ive though about suicide daily, and tried it (physically) soooo many times...but all i can say mate is dont try, dont even think about suicide...yeh..its hard feeling like shit all the time...but think..killing yourself will only fuck up others, and make them the feel same as you, depressed, hopeless, etc...and even though you may not give a flying fuck, and i felt like that when thinking of suicide...anyways...im not gunna say dont do it, im not gunna say do it...im just gunna tell you think about what you are doing...you CAN, guarenteed, get better, and killing yourself makes it worse for others...so dont be a dumbass mate, stay around in the world...remember killing yourself means no more music



now, for TA's...why would it be a joke? people get depressed, and do things like this to cry out for help? i highly doubt he has taken his life...because hes been online on and off recently...obiously checking the thread for replys for advice..so stop asking questions like 'is he dead??!?', and help out by giving neo some advice...because suffering what him, me, and many others suffer with, is no joke.

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Originally posted by erdega maybe if we tell him to do it, he might change his mind, you know the whole reverse psychology thing. Just playing devil's advocate . On the more serious side, You know what man we are all going to die anyway but think how much trance , sex and ice cream you will miss out on if you go sooner rather than later and think of people left behind you . It's simply not worth it man.

Maybe people who [want to] commit suicide are just bored with their life? Know what I did over the last 4 years while I was bored? I changed my persona (is this the right word?) to adapt to a culture that I seem to always be fascinated in (in case you wondered, it's East & SouthEast Asian) but, never actually wanted to get involved with much. I now pretty much, don't live and act like most Americans I know. I'm no longer (since 1999 or so) in that "revolving door" like this person who wishes to commit suicide appears to be. In fact, I now have a bit of trouble selecting what ethnicity I am if there's no "other" or "multi" option on a form because I don't act like any ethnicity fully. I have a desire to know about 10 different languages in the next decade or so. Trust me, you (neo geo) don't want to commit suicide. Do something that will automatically take a very long time to get done so your mind is occupied. Learn a [few] langauge(s). Live in different environments for a while. Live different every month of the year. Travel the world. Do things that will make you look forward to doing them every day. Example: Why not after learning a language, why not get involved in software development and learn how to translate a program into whatever language you speak? It has to help out somebody! It may help to learn a language that's spoken but, not a very major language. Maybe Vietnamese or Tagalog? There aren't too many apps in those languages. Maybe you can change that [and be famous]. (LOL) Seriously, the point I'm trying to get across is that you (neo geo) must not be doing too many things in life that you enjoy. Change that. I can write and write and if you wish to know a bit more about my last 4 years just reply and quote what you want to learn more about...

human life is only as valuable as we want to make it.

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Originally posted by montie altho this could all be a joke seeing as that fucktard bersom person registered here just a few days ago... dude man, chill. theres alot more to life then fucking dead end jobs and living with your parents. if your stuck, start something new. go do something crazy and fun. go on some adventure. go up north and work on some ranch or something, go live on the ocean and work for a cruise ship or on some ocean liner. go to some beach party town and work at some bar or something. theres so much fucking shit out there to enjoy. and if you are at the point where you got nothing to lose then fuck it, just go hit the open road. theres so much beauty in this life to enjoy. don't be self centered and take what you think is the easy way out. all your doing is hurting others and fucking their lives up. theres so much that can be in the future if you just get up an do it.

Damn. Looks like someone beat me by a whole lot to this... I always seem to take the long route when writing something... That's practically all I wanted to say.

come on geo, post something.!!! u can do it man.
let us know what's going on.

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First of all berson or whatever the fuk your name is need to stfu! Normally I wouldn't reply to idiots like you but this time you've crossed the line. If you got nothing to say, say nothing at all.

I've seen a few of my friends and even my ex-gf tried to kill herself, and it's the worst feeling in the world because at times you feel like there's nothing you could do for them. At lot of times people are on medication and anti-depressant and if you don't walk in their shoes you don't know what they are going through.

Someone asked earlier if someone who was ready to commit suicide would they leave a message like this in a forum. The answer to that question is yes. Often it's a cry for help or even just a final goodbye. I had a friend who dropped an email to all her friends before just before she tried to kill herself. Imagine waking up one morning to check on your email and finding a suicide letter in your box from one of your friends...that's exactly what happened to me. Not fun at all. Naturally we called the cops right away and when they came and busted her door down, she was unconscious and was taken to the hospital to pump her stomache from all the pills that she have taken.

From reading your post neo geo, I'm not sure if you're on medication or not. But if that's the only problems that you are facing, buddy I wouldn't sweat it. 24 is still very young and you still have the world ahead of you.

If I had to list my problems, I could probably write a book and I know of tons of people who are in worse situations than you. You say all you do is work to pay bills, well at least you can pay your bills. I was talking to a lady I work with this morning and she's telling me her daughter's boyfriend is working at least 2 jobs right now from 9am to 6am in the morning just to pay the bills! Think of how many hours that is and how much sleep he gets. His mother is 62 and have medical bills and they are just having trouble paying the rent. He can pretty much forget about any type of relationship, but his gf is sticking by him even though they hardly see each other.

Anyways, neo if you really need to talk to someone please get in touch with me. I've been in this situation before when I had to talk to friends in the process of their suicide. And I myself like so many others have contemplated it myself although I always knew that I would never go through with it.

Remember, life is a gift. Everyone has problems but we eventualy get through it. We can't be so selfish and not to think about our loved ones. You'd be hurting a lot more people than just yourself.

Ick, hope he's ok.

im still here and i want to thank all of u for your support.I am still in the same situation ive been in and each day is a struggle to live.Im so sick of being fucked up in the head. Im so scared of myself.I cant eat lately and my sleep paters are all fucked up.Im tired of going through this shit, i have been going to doctors since i was 11 years old for depression.I have come to grips that i prob will end up pulling that trigger one day but for now im stuck fighting the misery. I look at life of paying bills and having to raise kids and struggling through life and i dont want to face that shit anymore. The doctors keep feeding me all these meds and they dont even know the long term side effects of all the drugs, the drugs themselves could be killing me. I know its not manily to cry but i cant hold back the tears. I cant find out why there is so much pain and anger inside. There is only so much talking to friends u can do and u are still at point a.


god help me

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neo-geo... what do you think about the suggestion i sent you?

some may not like this suggestion, but as a manic depressive I believe i have the perogative.

work out every day thats key. Running 3-4 times a week will also balance out the chemicals. Trust me Ive lived in the world with a black cloud over my eyes. exercise cured a lot of it

*heres the part people susually dont like

use alcohol as an escape. it makes you happy. changed my life drastically and now im happier than ive ever been. i drink 1-2 beers a night, sometimes 23 or so bwahaha but thats really rare.

anyways. yeah work out and DRINK!

the room rave: a fifth of your favorite, blacklight, lightning dish, your favorite trance, and some visualizations on the comp!

IM sorry, but i have no comments for people looking for ATTENTION.

People who commit suicides dont post shit, dont go saying shit to everybody. They keep it in themselfs.

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Just look at it this way! HOw do you think your kids will feel? That alone should make you strive to live.

Stay strong, and as someone said, this is only temporary.

peace,

Steve