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| quote: | Originally posted by DJ Robby Rox
Well I actually thought it was that people genuinely had a hard time understanding me, which is why I explained myself.
I definitely can't say I understand myself 100% either. I mean I'm always trying to change, adapt or evolve in someway in life sometimes it happens in good ways other times not so good.
It seems if anything like YOU understand me at least better than you use to. And then people like DJ Rann or M4B just like to assume I'm naive which confuses me. I've been through more and seen more than a large majority of guys my age and I think if anything my outlook is a bit more seasoned than the avg person.
I also generally don't handle pretentious attitudes well and it seems like any time its me or DJ Rann/M4B in a thread SOMETHING has to be said by either one of them to assert how important they think they are or how right their position is and how wrong mine is. I think it originally started mainly due to my experience in music which is limited, and it seems like over the years they're always trying to push my limited skills in music to other areas in life.
I don't care enough about music to have a career in it and I think to some extent that bothers them. Like they just expect to be admired because of their lifestyle choices and see me as an outsider or what have you idrk. But the thing is the reason I've been on this forum as long as I have is because of how much I fucking love music. Like I don't care about it in a way where I would ever feel a desire to wanna make a living out of it, but I still love music to the point where I feel I deserve the same amount of respect either one of them do.
And in that regard they should stop the condescending bs immediately. But because they always need to feel more qualified not just in music but life in general, I doubt these issues will ever go away. Accept me for a flawed music loving human being, or don't accept me at all. And right now its clear they're both engaging that latter. Because they wouldn't correct me over meaningless shit like how to use the word "melody" properly, nor make references in kysoras threads about how hes like me just because we both use Fl and aren't fucking perfect of all things.
It does actually piss me off. I mean I take to it like a joke but for DJ Rann to insinuate that ky can't make a thread and ask a question because its too simple, or a "user error" (wtf isn't a user error?) thats preposterous and pisses me off. Its also not joking because thats nothing you joke about to another person. He was trying to deman kysora mainly for not being perfect, and thats part of the reason that even though I like DJ Rann I will never respect him fully as a person.
Its really a lot more shit I think then just understanding each other lol. I see lots of shit on this forum I don't like and I think it just comes out at the wrong times in the wrong ways. |
What I know about you is that, when you're not pissed off, you're really fucking smart. There's truth in what you're saying about your life experience being, at least, a little more intense than the average bear's and virtue for having had them. You're not making good use of them or your intellect, being pissed off, though.
As firmly as RANN believes that a professional sound-card is part of the solution for Kysora, I honestly think that everything you're trying to achieve, could be achieved without any hostility and that what you want to achieve falls far short of what you actually could achieve if you'd stop letting your anger take the reigns. While people might insist you're getting crapped on because you're a monumental shit-head, I know for a fact that the reason is simply because people expect better from you. The simple fact is that you've demonstrated yourself capable of better, on more than one occasion.
As much as it might satisfy you to find your brute-force approach to conflict resolution, successful, your thinking is on a much higher plain when it's not directed in such a fashion. You're a smart guy but the "problems" you're facing are walnuts that you're trying to use a hand-grenade to crack. It's a very simple dilemma, really.
When you're pissed and you want to write a flame, you're wrong. You may be right about certain things, but in totality, you're still wrong. At all other times, you're right or, even if you're wrong, your thinking can be directed to the correct conclusion. It's when you get pissed, though, that you miss the forest for the trees.
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