i was an arsonist and a rebel

went around and just climbed trees and burnt shit

yeah...that sorta thing

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I was a square cut glasses wearer who was underestermated at prep school, who ate all her packed lunch by breaktime, did hand stands in the front lawn and got told off for showing her knickers to the boys.

Excelled in sport and drama at seniour school until i discovered the more interesting ways to keep fit. Considered an out cast because i laughed all the time and said weird things and therefore subjected to mental bullying. Had few but very precious friends. Got wasted most saturdays and away with most other things that you can do at a private bording school.

nicknames, roots, freak

EDIT: think i had few friends becuase i was unconventional, i.e. prefering to play hopping tennis instead of regular, and generally not being 'cool' enuff for the poncy private school assholes i had to put up with. My parents were teachers at the boarding school so i lived in an all boys boarding house from ages 8-18. a bit like living in a goldfish bowl made me very selfconsious.

Rebelled heavily again the institution in my last year there and when i left the school, got arrested etc, was kinda fun.

Took the next 3-4 years of smoking dope and philosophising to understand my view of the world (how i got a 2/1 in my degree i'll never know) now i aint doing to bad and am constantly happy even if im not. Life just seems to get better, especially this last year trance, chris, tim, t00t, lam (and a bunch of non ta's) have made a very large impact on my life and all for the good

Last edited by Misty Kitty on Oct-15-2003 at 16:45

i was the nerd with glasses who was really clever but wasnt the most confident of sorts.

Bro dragged me out clubbing when I was 16 and my confidence grew stronger and stronger and I became what I am today...

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Originally posted by KilldaDJ i was an arsonist and a rebel went around and just climbed trees and burnt shit yeah...that sorta thing

me too, a rebel, yet clever. which used to get at the teachers, because i was extremily sarcastic and cheeky and made teh whole class laugh at the teacher...unfortuneatley when i grew up in my later days of school, the teachers still hated me and got me in maximum trouble even though i wasnt really that bad

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Originally posted by Misty Kitty I did hand stands in the front lawn and got told off for showing her knickers to the boys.

cant fault that

i was generally a good boy until secondary school.. then most of the time thru that i was the one who could do so much better if only he wasnt quite so stoned. i was a bastard to some teachers at times (only the ones that didnt like me tho) and i think i contibuted a lot to mrs glover's nervous breakdown.

i was also the one that liked organising things.. like for example when most of the upper school was empty due to a battle that was going to take place between our school and nearby st marys.. the police were keeping them in and us out.. some teachers came out shouting and everyone legged it but 8 of us.. pussies

then as it went on thru secondary school.. i think everyone thought i was on skag, which i found hilarious..

i have since been tamed by the fearless nita

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when i was at primary school, i was the little goody boy, always used to finish my work first and get loads of house points , then when i went to secondary school, got in with the wrong crowd, stopped doing doing all my work, started abusing the teachers 'cos it was cool, and i had to impress the leaders of the gang so they'd stick up for me, then started getting bullied which completely destroyed any self confidence i might have had, then left school at 16 with two GCSE A-C's(maths and german)because i hated it. Wish i had stayed on now, oh well never mind.

Outside of school I was a really destructive little sod, went through this phase where i'd put all my old toy cars in the back garden, and shoot them with my air rifle , much fun was had, weekend were usually spent either buying a child travelcard and going 'dossing' on trains and buses with the crew, or going to the local field with beer and getting hammered. Fosters Ice, 6 for £5, or thunderbird was usually the drink of choice, a lot of fun was had

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I was just your average anonymous kid that got his share of bullying just like everyone else who didn't get in with the "cool" gang. I sucked at math and woodwork, was the star pupil in english and always did ok in gym class. Teachers usually liked me, altho I did get into trouble now and then when the bullies pissed me off properly.

I remember one incident in particular. It was winter, and one of the bullies had been pelting me with snowballs all through recess. Then as I made my way past the sled hill, I slipped on the ice and hit the back of my head so that I got a serious bump. I was just getting up and shaking off the dizziness when that fucking bully showed up yet again and threw another snowball(laced with ice and gravel for good measure) straight in my stomach. I got so pissed off that I chased after him and gave him a straight punch to the face that knocked him down and gave him a nosebleed. Needless to say the teachers weren't happy with my actions (and neither was I since I never liked violence), but right there and then things just boiled over big time.

After another 4-5 woeful years of puberty and insecurity, I started to not give a fuck about anything and anyone, which gave me a lot more confidence, all while biting back more fiercely and flamboyantly than ever at the people that annoyed me. It paid off in the end, and people started leaving me alone. Unfortunately this also caused the people I DID like to be scared off by my sudden burst of confidence and my ability to stay different from everyone else. Combined with my dark and brooding periods, it ultimately made people shy away from me. Since then I have been a lonely soul, and I still am to this day.

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Last edited by Sand Leaper on Oct-14-2003 at 09:45

Now I'm properly awake i'll finish mine off

Aged 8 I finished all the 7-11 year old books in the school, and basically went onto adult ones & got bored in the end.

I was also 2nd best in maths in the school in year 5, with only my mate in year 6 being any better, we'd do 'speed tests' where u got100 sums and had 10 minutes to do it, I managed 2 minutes 12 once, he'd get like 2 minutes 2 which is still a school record.

I never really connected with too many people as I was a bit different, I found music & maths easy but was picked on cos of my food allergies including once being forcefed by the teacher (paul lane his name was) who was like 20 stone & out of shape, yet had goes at me for being slightly lacking in stamina back then. I also was really into computer games & the teachers from all classes used to call on me to help which made ppl jealous, in a way jealousy was sadly the spice of life


Moving onto secondary school, I never really fit in with many of the guys, only some lots on & off, guys who were jealous of me used to try show me up, but I was good at maths until algebra came into it & equations & stuff & I began to receed, in year 9 I got level 8 sats, but only got a E in the gcse due to missing an exam though illness, but i'll go there in a sec.

I was always popular with the girls as a friend, someone they could talk to about boys & know it was in confidence, so it's kinda like that now even here, im close to jolz, eleni, leeann, toni, julie & many many more, just how I've always been

I was never good at sciences, I couldn't hold things steady & found it all boring apart from astronomy. Still draw paint & colour in to a 6 year old level, and my writing was poor due to stubby fingers & arthritis in the family which means i can't always grip a pen for an hour straight at a time, cos it'd hurt me a lot. Couldn't do wood or metal work, my nana always did the sewing (teacher thought i was good lmao, i once didn't plug the pedal in to get out of doing it myself in lesson so she sent the machine off to be fixed) and was really creative in cooking, way above most other ppl.


In gcse years i was in the top set at maths but demoted for a) throwing a chair at the teacher who refused to help me when i started to struggle mentally, just after my grandad had died, I kinda went downhill from there. I was top set English, and although quiet at times could come into my element. I took art & fucked around cos the music dept wouldn't buy synths & decks & stuff (i tried my best)

I was dropped into set 6 out of 8 for science as i grew poorer at it, also i found biology icky. I was top set at business studies, german, and even stayed after school for french gcse as my timetable was full, plus it was me + 6 cute girls and looked good on my roa. Due to a short attention span coupled with finding a lot of the work too easy, I began to not bother & got worse & worse, funny classes included IT where it was 18 lads who all had a big laugh, Food cos i melted & blew up a lot of things & business cos it was just funny with the teacher who was 24 & she related to us in things, which helped a lot.

However come year 11 stress was getting to me & in the end tbf i bottled, I lost it, bigtime, in 5 months of being off sick, no1 even phoned me to see if i was ok or came round & I became bitter & resentful, suspicious of people & motives, wondering what they were saying about me, and bullied a lot, and in the end i shut myself away to what I am now, I dont know how to get out of this mess, I don't know if i will, but some of the guys here have put faith in me & I owe it to them to at least try

Edit - I'm always slightly deaf to voices at times & tones, and i always talk 'loud' even tho i don't think i am. anyway thats enough rambling, but i guess u could say im a genious gone troubled, my IQ is terrible now, and im receeding a lot to what I was, amazing what confidence adds to u, and u dont realise til its gone

Edit 2 - I think losing my grandad was the hardest, as he was the only male roldemodel I have, my 'dad' is a twat, doesn't care, consistantly puts me down & makes me miserable, and is only my dad in dna tbh, he loves my bro cos he's at university, and i think losing the male rolemodel just scarred me a lot, esp cos my grandad was so good, like a dad brother & best friend, and the only male to ever stick up for me

I saw dead people.

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i was the token genius guy who couldnt be arsed, when i started comprehensive school i hated football, by the end i'd earned the knickname psycho for my defensive "exploits", was kinda quiet and jsut tagged along with everyone else really coz thats the best way to survive the arrogant if-you-dont-fit-the-mold-your-a-reject type society that is secondary school. lucky thing is trance was popular when i was at secondary school so that wasnt thought of as wierd. however i was pretty much at the heart of most of the "friendly" piss taking as i never said anything back as i dont like offending people. eventually detached from most of my mates (apart from gibbo of course) as i couldnt be a cyber and close friends with those people, their thoughts on things pretty trapped and narrowed by the fact we've all lived in a village all our lives, although now everyone grown up they dont really care, as dont i

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