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Heh. Take a number and stand in line bro.
Unfortunately, I've come to understand that being a unique person is a double edged sword. My passion for electronica already alienates me from about 95% of the teenaged social population. When I tell a girl my favorite artists are Underworld, D-Fuse and Donald Glaude, they give me this blank stare as if they'd just been labotomized. The only "music" they know is the RIAA schlock they hear on the radio. Or when I tell them about the books I enjoy, my favorite movies, my love of video games... even trivial shit like the healthy food I eat makes me "un cool," for fucks sake. Sorry, I dont like stuffing my face with junk food, watching American Idol, gossiping at school about whos going out with who, going to high school football games, or listening to Fiddy cent and whoever rapping about how uneducated and stupid they sound. I don't enjoy driving around the mall for 3 hours blasting rap music every saturday night like a horny gorilla puffing his chest. I don't enjoy fucking random girls that I've known for 3 hours and going through relationships faster than I change my underwear, while still fooling around on the side the entire time. I'd rather be out at a good (electronica) party, or barring that, inside playing some Halo all night and chilling with some tunes. I guess im not cool enough and eligible for most girls out there, but thats ok, I most of them dreadfully unattractive anyways.
You wouldn't beleive how much shit I take for insignificant things.
"What the fuck are you listening to?"
"Eew what the fuck are you eating, collard greens and V8?"
"That movie/book [which you enjoy] sucks ass. How can you like that shit?"
None of it really bothers me though. I enjoy who I am and I enjoy what I do. It can be very frustrating when trying to find a girl, but I accept it as a fair trade off for being a unique individual. They're are plenty of fish in the sea though, dont worry. The real trouble is finding them, particularly the ones that aren't taken , like a particular girl I know who is the girlfriend of my good friend... shes beautiful, plays counter strike, C&C, well pretty much any game the we are playing (quite well, I should add), seems to have a very secure head on her shoulders, etc. Whenever we get together to lan she comes too, but as one of the guys. Its cool as hell, and I envy the dude.
I suppose the key is to be patient. I see a lot of guys with more girlfriends in a month than they can count on their fingers and toes, yet every time they preach as if they've found the greatest girl ever, yet next week they won't even remember them, as if they're last weeks garbage. Thats not really love.
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NEW MIX [Feb/March 2008]
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