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I'm not worrying about one of us getting drunk and something dumb happening (either one of us acting like an annoying dick, or as someone has of course suggested, something sexual, which I'll just clarify would never, ever happen and is not the issue at hand), I won't be drinking and she quit all alcohol/drugs when she converted. I dunno, I guess I'm kind of apprehensive about being around her while peaking. I've spoken to her pretty extensively about my drug use and she used to do it herself, but talking about it and seeing it a two different things, not sure if she'll hold it against me or somehow lose respect or see me in a different light or something. I also tend to get pretty intense when on e, and I'm not sure if I'll end up acting in a way or saying something that I normally wouldn't say or something, there's such thing as too close, you know? Even the closest siblings need something kept to themselves, and I guess I feel this kind of crosses the line a little. My partying has always been something I keep seperate from my family life, and I'm not sure if blurring that line is a good thing or a bad thing.
Maybe I just need to grow up and see her less as my older sister and more as just another person.
Last edited by Taranis on May-11-2007 at 13:36
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