Hi!

In new here but I live in france.

My 2nd X really really scrubed my brain's cells, and I UNDERSTOOD.
Unfortunately, as I was looking deep inside myself, I realized how lonely I had been, since I broke up with my childhood group of friends, for some troubles, when I was about15/16.
I'm 20 right now and I can see how stupid and superficial also, I've been those few last years.
The reason why I'm writng this letter today is that I want to make up for lost time: I NEED TO BE PUBLIC, as I used to be before I broke up, but not the same way...
The trigger that brought me there is when my friend asked me why I wasn't jumping around, and talk to everybody...
well, that shit was strong for a 2nd time(fish), and no doubt, I missed something in my life.
Finally, I felt so ashamed and terrified that I sat all night for the first time of my life in rave or club.
Ok. this was a message for serious people who feel involved in my problem. Because they know it , because they have known it, or because somebody they like suffer from it in silent.
You can make fun of it if you want(I suppose people already did it), but I'll apreciate helpfull answers.
Also, if you're a kasanova, give advice how to get hard girls, I don't want easy ones anymore(I didn't mean ugly!!)I don't want to deceive em because of what I am.

Ok.I'm done and I hope that your answers will encourage me to answer back soon. nice day. Do not buy Oakenfold's last album.

?????What?????are?????you?????talking?????about?????

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Right i think i understand what u are sayin and i think to an extent evry1's been in that position at some time in their life. I used to b very quiet and withdrawn but i have now got some quality mates who made me more loud and ive been the same since. ASs for the ladies best advice is to be as nice to them as possible. There are a lot of men who are knob heads and treat women like shit, if ur nice to them u seem like their knight in shining armor.

Hope that helps!

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What are you looking for? i don't get it?
girls?
friends?
drugs?

The only advice i can give (having felt in a sort of similar situation recently) is to talk to your friends. YOu may be extremely surprised how people who you thought were just friendly associates, turn out to actually be the most caring, supportive people in the world, who have gone through all the same things as yourself (as i found out ). Anyway, good luck and take care

Mike

??? My advise: stop smoking crack!

Steve

well laiss, i've been through a lot of rough times meself. i'm sure we all have. i had a point in time where i secluded away from EVERYONE...hated the world...didn't know where to turn to...it got better slowly...but still...that rage still burned inside of me...till one day. i met this wonderful human being, this one person i could totalllly relate to when i was younger. she basically pulled out what was there inside of me all along, and i was myself again...i didn't bother hiding things anymore. i was much happier afterwards.

what i'm trying to say is...traumatic experiences can be quite hard to go through by yourself. you'll meet people, and if you believe in fate, you'll meet someone that will changeyour life for good. luckily for me, i've found that person and i'm still awesome friends with her. things always get better and then you'll be able to chauk these experiences as learning experiences, which will make you a stronger person indeed.

as for girls and stuff, there's no need to look for them...the right ones will come to you when you least expect it. just be yourself, don't hide anything, and treat the ones that you 'feel' with respect. the formula is quite simple. when a right person enters your life....you'll feel it...

peace

i've realised that lately, i've been getting confused really easily with threasds....... is it just me.. or are ppl getting random and stuff?

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heheh...yeah i hear ya infin....i haven't been on TA much actually these days...i've been so busy. but when i get back on...like just now...i don't know what's going on. hehe.

Damn this some deep shit. I've read your post a few times dude and i still don't get what u're saying, is it that u've no friends or you don't like the ones you have, or what... i'm not takin the piss out of you i just don't get what u're saying.

Anyways peace

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laiss c'est quoi ton probléme ? peut-etre si tu t'exprimais en francais ca serait plus facile pour toi , en tous cas si t'as besoin d'aide on est la !!

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defonse! plus de gens qui parle francais!

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