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Originally posted by Silky Johnson I'm missing an amazing Canada Day party right now because my bf is too hungover from last night. Live bands, food, badminton, volleyball, horseshoes, and most importantly - old friends. Bummed and pissed off. Ugh.

Why not go by yourself? Or is that a faux pas for you?

Not a faux pas at all. But am tired myself and was hoping he would want to go and thus motivate me to be less tired.

Does anyone else have 1, 2, 3 second fits of, "Fuck, I won't be here one day, I'll be dead and gone?"

Ever since I stopped believing in heaven.

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Originally posted by OrangestO This isn't about physics, this is about waves.

Yeah, man. Free-floating anxiety. It never gets better, but maybe you do.

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Originally posted by Halcyon+On+On Yeah, man. Free-floating anxiety. It never gets better, but maybe you do.

Is that what it's clinically called?

I've had this feeling since I was like 10/11. Sporadic moments, 1-3 second fits, of "oh shit, I'll be gone one day."

Then I forget about it and proceed. And it only happened a few times/year. If that.

Since everyone thinks of death, I was wondering if everyone thinks of it this way.

Far be it from me to diagnose what you're going through. It's serious to your character, but never as serious as you think. Consider it a quarter-life crisis, and find your way.

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Lol.

You're next.

oOooOooOoooooOooo

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Seriously though, you never contemplated death for split seconds, Hal?

Wow compiler/language design is probably the most fun thing I have done in a long time. It fills all the little niches of programming that I like. It's a constant challenge, the implementation is the challenge, and the expansive parts are not boring. Plus its a useful tool that will get used and feedback and hopefully contributions, so you get a sense of community in the actual coding.

Its coding for coders, which is always nice (writing libraries gives me the same sort of satisfaction, but its less implementation than a compiler).

:P I wish I could skip doing all the shitty boring I already know how to do it work of undergrad CS work and just get into post-grad stuff. :@