A lot of the guilt was definitely due to the influence of my sister, who was always saying "You NEED to do this" and "You NEED to do that" etc. I am, and always have been, perfectly content not doing much of anything. The minute I stopped feeling like I had to justify my choices to her, I was able to enjoy just hanging out doing "nothing" with the baby all day, again recognizing this is time we will never get back. Approaching 14 months and now it definitely doesn't seem like enough!
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