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Re: personal thoughts on tomorrow night and a depressed rant...
| quote: | Originally posted by pvd420
this is not one of your typical pvd threads, about what song he is supposed to or not supposed to play, or about what time to get there or what you can and cant bring inside. this is me venting on a very depressing subject at the moment.
i wrote the "i know this may sound sad but..." thread months ago complaining about being lonely and not being able to give what i have to offer to the right girl out there and so on. well a few months later after being alone for over 2 years and meeting only 1 person, i met the most amazing girl. our personalities connected in every way i could possibly imagine and more.
we got to know each other and i knew right away i wanted her to be with me and no one else. you can think all you want about jumping to conclusions too quickly but i know with every fiber in my being and in my soul she was the one i wanted to be with and could see myself with for good.
when she and i discussed my love of trance and clubbing, it made me realize i had found someone truly unique who could appreciate music like i could and could bring with me to the club and have an amazing time with. she was supposed to come with me to pvd tomorrow night and ferry on saturday. unfortunately (and completely out of left field), after the most amazing valentines day she and i have both ever had, she and i get into one or two small disagreements later last week, and she decides she cant be with me anymore. issues with one of her past relationships made her feel like i was going to treat her just like someone else did (who treated her like complete shit) after only one fight.
needless to say i am devastated. completely heartbroken. after years of going clubbing and out to shows alone i finally thought i was being blessed with someone i loved so very much to share the experience with. in addition to that i just cant believe that the only girl i have realistically said to myself "I can picture myself marrying this girl", has walked out of my life.
i know some of this comes across as wierd on an internet message board but i did get a good response last time so i figured i'd just vent on here.
so no matter how good the set is tomorrow night, or how much fun i will try to have, there will be something really big missing for me....
for those of you who have that amazing person in your lives, cherish them as much as you can cause what happened to me is living proof that something so good can vanish in the blink of an eye with very little explaination why |
dude does she have a screenname or email address... if so PM it to me... Ill mend those broken wings
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/SARCASM.
| quote: | Originally posted by Coup
Vlad wins.
Flawless victory. |
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