I'm over here in France visiting my dad for the summer,and my "vacation" is almost done (I leave back to LA tomorrow). But this has been nagging me the whole time I've been here.
My Dad is 62 and he survived lung cancer in 96' and a brain tumor in 00', both attributed to smoking. (2 packs per day for 23 years). He's already gettin pretty old and tired from the last two therapys that hit hard. He got slower and he can't remember things well at all.
Earlier this year I got news that he had a tumor in his kidney. He's been getting treatment for that for 6 months. Halfway through my vacation here (month ago) he got back from a check up and the doc says the tumor has spread to his lung and liver.
Now...I hate to think about this. But I can sense deep inside that this really isn't good news. It's really hard to confront this thought, but I don't think his chances for overcoming this are very good. And this whole mess is really messing me up. I've almost been ignoring it for the past few weeks...but tomorrow might be the last time I get to see him.
It's almost like one of those movies where father and son say their last goodbyes...it's excruciating to think of it that way...but him surviving this would be a miracle...
All I can do is hope.
Thanx for readin.
-Clovis
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Aug-16-2004 23:30
Vivid Boy
TA's GodFather
Registered: Sep 2001
Location: T.O
why dont u stay till he passess on? im sure he wouldlike that
Aug-16-2004 23:33
butterfly
melissa
Registered: Apr 2002
Location: West CoCo, CA
that sucks... 62 is really young. i cant fathom what i would do in your situation but my first thought would be how i could stay there with him longer.
Aug-16-2004 23:34
Clovis
techno jungle shit
Registered: Apr 2004
Location: Los Angeles
Well...at the risk of being absolutley broke I need to get back to working...if anything gets bad I have a return ticket for 200$.
You never know with this shit though.
It just felt good to write this...
-Clovis
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Aug-16-2004 23:36
WhooCares
spaghett
Registered: Sep 2003
Location: Tx TA #11
Sorry to hear that man, Confort your dad bro...seriously, the job can wait....i dont know if u neeed the cash THAT bad..but if u do, go back, keep in contact with him day by day, and when u have enough, go back and stay with him for a bit...
stay as long as you can... you don't want to regret anything in the future
seriously, money is nothing compared to family
best of luck
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Aug-16-2004 23:43
Ang ' ela_ie
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Registered: Jul 2004
Location: SF
Get off TA and go spend some time with him.
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Aug-16-2004 23:45
Clovis
techno jungle shit
Registered: Apr 2004
Location: Los Angeles
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Originally posted by Ang ' ela_ie
Get off TA and go spend some time with him.
Well it's almost 2am...
It's not the fact that I'm leaving that most bothers me in fact...its that he actually might die.
-Clovis
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Aug-16-2004 23:47
WhooCares
spaghett
Registered: Sep 2003
Location: Tx TA #11
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Originally posted by Clovis86
Well it's almost 2am...
It's not the fact that I'm leaving that most bothers me in fact...its that he actually might die.
-Clovis
Think of it as if he's just fine..Go spend time with him, have your laughs...IF I WERE YOU, i would have the best of memories with him during hard times like these..nd if the worst does happen....you have those beaufitul memories to share with your self and family and friends...DOnt let him go away that easy.....sometimes i feel as if i take my dad for granted...and that sucks...i better stop.
Originally posted by DjWhooCares
Think of it as if he's just fine..Go spend time with him, have your laughs...IF I WERE YOU, i would have the best of memories with him during hard times like these..nd if the worst does happen....you have those beaufitul memories to share with your self and family and friends...DOnt let him go away that easy.....sometimes i feel as if i take my dad for granted...and that sucks...i better stop.
I agree.
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Aug-16-2004 23:52
trancebrat
Terry Bones' wife
Registered: Oct 2003
Location: San Antonio, FL & Frameries, BE
Clovis...I'm really sorry to hear that. You definitely need to be there for your father. Even if you have to go back to LA make sure that you are easily accessible. Part of healing is also mental. The human body can do some amazing things if the will is there to see it through. Depression can rob people of their will to live and inspiration can bring it back. Always strive to be that inspiration for your father. I know this is stating the obvious and I'm sure that you would do nothing short of that. I know I haven't known you that long (month or two), but if you ever need someone to talk to I would be more than happy to listen. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
As someone (TB) said in his MSN name recently...make each moment count.
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Aug-16-2004 23:53
Clovis
techno jungle shit
Registered: Apr 2004
Location: Los Angeles
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Originally posted by DjWhooCares
Think of it as if he's just fine..Go spend time with him, have your laughs...IF I WERE YOU, i would have the best of memories with him during hard times like these..nd if the worst does happen....you have those beaufitul memories to share with your self and family and friends...DOnt let him go away that easy.....sometimes i feel as if i take my dad for granted...and that sucks...i better stop.
We had a great time this whole vacation. Laughed...I took lots of pictures of him and my mom having fun. But I cant just go sit with him because I think he's gonna die...I don't want him to get that impression...
-CLovis
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This is really hard...
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