Am I Being Superficial and Shallow?
Ok reason I am posting in here about this , is because of all the GREAT feedback I got on previous threads I created when I needed REAL help…such as a girl I shared a year ago and my SCAREY encounter with a disease last year.,..which most everyone helped with…….
OK…so lemme start…..
I met this girl….and I will explain why I like her and at the end will say the ONLY and I mean ONLY thing that is holding me back from pursueing her harder or at a faster pace….by the way I have been seeing for a month now.
Ok I will list it:
GOOD POINTS ABOUT HER:
1. Smart – I can hold a conversation with her about ANYTHING…from politics to music to cars to life to money…you name it……she has valid points and unbeleivable input in all conversations…
2. Caring – I sometimes get panic attacks…and last week with her I had one…and she took my hand and I SWEAR TO GOD made me feel better in less then 5 seconds….she always asks me how I am and if I feel ok….the type of girl you would not be embarresed to cry with…very sweet and always ready to listen to my problems.
3. Unselfish – I started jogging again and told her one day that I don’t like to do it because I cant listen to music…and I could not buy a cd player…so next thing I know 2 days later she gives me hers that she used all the time….and I begged her to take it back..but she would not…always thinking of others.
4. Shows Interest – She is not into trance…but whne she new I was she totally began to ask me about Tiesto..and I dotn mean like most girls where they ask a few questions just to humour you…I mean she asked me where he was from, how long has he been djing, why I like him, whats my favorite song…then “SHE” wanted m to teach her the difference between prog, uplifting, tech etc etc…I said why do u wanna know…and she said “because u show so much passion for it”…I almost dropped dead…too sweet…she is also dying to come see Tiesto and watch my videos…she is alsways asking me about him and the music….she also shows interest in my dancing…I dance Liquid and I pop…and she actually wants to learn how so we can do it together….she already started a few things…blew my mind away.
5. Independent(sp?) – She holds 2 jobs and goes to college…..she basicaly supports her family because her father is gone and her mother is Portugese and doenst speak English and cant find a job…so this girl has a condo under her name….definatley has her head on her shoulders…..
6. Innocent – she is 20 and has only had sex with 2 guys…far from a slut…which is very good….
7. Faithful – She dated her exboyfriend for 3 years and NEVER cheated on him…I know this for a FACT because I know her exboyfriend and most of her friends….and they told me….which can add to the next point.
8. Trustworthy – Since she never cheats I can trust her to be faithful…and for some reson I can sense she wont lie to me…I have extreme trust in her,…which I may add I have never had in ANY girl before.
NOW….that is just a GLIMPSE of what is GREAT about her…but
I must force on you that she is with out a doubt the kindess, sweetess and most loving girl I have ever met in my life…and I am not joking….
As far as personality goes …you could not ask for a better one…she is what guys DREAM of having…
NOW…here is the ONE thing that I think I am being SHALLOW and SUPERFICIAL about…..her or maybe I should say MY only flaw with her.
1. She is not the hottest girl I have been with…..when I say this I don’t mean she is ugly…FAR FROM IT….she is very pretty….she is Portugese 5’7 120 long brown hair hazel eyes 36c breasts…nice ass…..NOT UGLY AT ALL….
But my problem is I think stems from my mother….see when I was growing up and also now..my mother ALWAYS critizes peoples looks…she ALWAYS has soemthing negative to say about people…either they are too fat or their hair is too short or they have bad skin etc etc…always soemthing negative….
SOOOOO since my mother wlays did this I think I conceived in my mind that “I” MUST have the perfect LOOKING girl….so I tend to pick and pick at a girl’s looks..basically focusing on WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER then what is good….
So what I wanna know is this…..am I a MORON for not taking this girl while I have the chance because I don’t find her to be the most beautiful girl I have been with?..is that SHALLOW AND SUPERFICIAL?….i mean I KNOW that you should fall in love with someone for WHO THEY ARE INSIDE but I have this problem…and have had for so long….but I must remind you that her inner self and her good qualities are so wonderful that I could not ask for more in a relationship …maybe even marriage…..
Only thing that I am holding back for …is her looks…..all my friends said she is pretty..they all said she was a 7 or 8 on a scale of 1-10...1 being ugly ten being insanely hot…….even my sister said I was acting dumb when I told her how seet and caring this girl is……may I also add I LOVE this girls name…which is Tania…love that name….anyway----
So what do you guys think…am I being a fool?
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Last edited by tiesto14 on Nov-19-2002 at 04:42
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always criticizing other women
