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is it ME or the "E"? (pg. 5)
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| Slylee |
| quote: | Originally posted by Thor
This will sound somewhat contradicting to what you people must think of me, but here goes.... :)
I often worry about younger people getting into drugs, it sometimes turns out a trip on E is just opening the flood gates of experimentation with drugs.. I know so many younger people do drugs responsibly and get educated, but then I read your post and I worry a lot about your approach to drugs.
I don't know you personally, but I still worry that you aren't taking the power of drug use seriously enough. E is not something you should be taking every week, thats for starters. If you aren't feeling the effects like before that means its time to stop. Your seratonin levels are likely quite low, and this added to your past depression is a bad combination.
I never touched drugs until I was 23, and I think it was definately good that I waited that long. If I'd done drugs when I was 16-18, I would have never treated them like I do today. Sometimes we just aren't ready for drugs, or we just shouldn't do them.
I hope you think seriously about cutting out E for a while, and please take drugs more seriously, experimenting is fine but please be carefull not to make bad decisions.
Good luck, I sincerely hope everything works out for you :) |
hey thanks:) but just to remind everyone...i am NOT taking "e" every weekend...i was just saying that when i DO take it (once every few months) i don't enjoy it. i USED to do it every weekend in high school...but i just got bored with it. the only reason why i still do it once in a while is cuz i made the mistake of introducing my bf to it. so naturally he's at a different level than i am. he wants to do it more than i do. however, he is 26 years old and that was his first time, so, like u thor, he is responsible about it and doesn't get carried away. he told me that it's not important to him to roll again if it's not good for me. he wants me to quit all that too. just wanted u guys to know that i'm not currently taking "e" like all the time...just that when i do..i feel ty. also the more i thought about it...i definately have addictions in my family tree. like alcoholism and drug abuse. well i know for a fact that i will never be an alcoholic because i can't stand the feeling of being drunk and i don't like most alcoholic drinks or beer. but i did have a stepdad that was a pill popper (pain killers) and he was in and out of rehab for years when i was growing up...so it's like i was 7 years old and i knew what morphene was and percosets and like that. so i better be careful...hey at least i'm smart enough to realize and see warning signs and i'm not in denial...that's the first step right?? hehe
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| Thor |
| quote: | Originally posted by Slylee
hey thanks:) but just to remind everyone...i am NOT taking "e" every weekend...i was just saying that when i DO take it (once every few months) i don't enjoy it. i USED to do it every weekend in high school...but i just got bored with it. the only reason why i still do it once in a while is cuz i made the mistake of introducing my bf to it. so naturally he's at a different level than i am. he wants to do it more than i do. however, he is 26 years old and that was his first time, so, like u thor, he is responsible about it and doesn't get carried away. he told me that it's not important to him to roll again if it's not good for me. he wants me to quit all that too. just wanted u guys to know that i'm not currently taking "e" like all the time...just that when i do..i feel ty. also the more i thought about it...i definately have addictions in my family tree. like alcoholism and drug abuse. well i know for a fact that i will never be an alcoholic because i can't stand the feeling of being drunk and i don't like most alcoholic drinks or beer. but i did have a stepdad that was a pill popper (pain killers) and he was in and out of rehab for years when i was growing up...so it's like i was 7 years old and i knew what morphene was and percosets and like that. so i better be careful...hey at least i'm smart enough to realize and see warning signs and i'm not in denial...that's the first step right?? hehe
sly |
Cool, then my level of worry is gone :D Glad to see though you do see those possible dangers and especially if you have it in the family tree, thats a good reason to be extra care.
Your definately on the right track, if you are asking questions then you are aware of the potential problems, so good for you slylee :)
And if you want to try 'tripping' again, skip the lsd and go with Mushrooms, much safer and IMO much more fun.... |
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| Slylee |
| quote: | Originally posted by j_spot
Good for you. I hope u have the willpower to resist them drugs. But in Case you fail, Try again. You will beat them someday. Im sure of it!
Anywho, if u can(and have any) try to use your siblings as support. My sis is well..not really an 'Addict' but she is definetly more than a rec user of drugs, u name is, shes prolly tried it. the one time I caught her snorting coke @ home for no reason I on her sOooooo hardcore... Her reasoning is 'hey at least its not crack' Brilliant reasoning. Needless to say she doesnt snort anymore(from what she tells me) but the rest are still game...
Hope u get thru it. Cuz if u r that blonde in the pics u posted earlier(in the how do I post a pic thread, then u b DAMN hot) ;) Power to you! |
thank you for your encouragement and the compliment btw:) |
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| wasmario |
hey slylee,
give it a break! stay totally clean for bout 2-3 months and stay away from the guys taking drugs of any kind!!!
if u do so uīll see how u change!
mentally as physically!!
i had a 10 weeks break and after 5 weeks i started coming down mentally from all the drugs!! canīt express it very well but you will start thinking like a sober girl again, which doesnīt mean that u forget all the awesome things u experienced on drugs!!
4 weeks ago i stopped my break at an awesome GOA-party and iīve to say that it was just incredible!! a tiny line of speed kept me going off like hell on the dance floor!!
though i canīt say the same for "e" coz iīd lie to u!!
"e" will probably never be the same again like u started once!!
u will probably never see the world with these kinda childish,innocent, pure positive eyes again!!!
drugs like these u r using let u age faster than a sober girl!!!
iīm on drugs for 2 full years now and i feel like 5-6 years older!!
though i havenīt lost fun in life but it increased!!!
at least a little tip from a burned child:
takin acids is really dependant on where u r ond who is with u!!!
i prefer taking them outside coz trips are kinda long thing for just 100 squaremeters of flat or something like that!
on acid u should just do what u want to do!!!!
if someone other needs your help and u feel like u donīt want to, let it be and tell the guy u canīt!!
they have to understand!!!
i hope i expressed my self well enough, if u got questions, please...
k?? ;) ;) ;) |
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| cdn_trance_boy |
Even though I haven't been on this site for very long, I've been doing the party thing for the past three years. I remember the first times I did E and can remember the feeling so well yet after about six mnths it was different I was high but not with the same feeling :conf:. So I know how you feel in a way. I decided to take it easy and spread it out more. Now I may do it once every couple of months. Now when I do I enjoy it but I agree with alot of the people who have said that once it's gone it's hard to catch that initial feeling again of when you first started. Oh well. I still go out and give her and I still love that feeling of crashing in bed at about 10 or 11 in the morning with that beat still pounding in my head and a smile on my face.
Cheers
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| !_PeTrUs_! |
| quote: | Originally posted by cdn_trance_boy
Even though I haven't been on this site for very long, I've been doing the party thing for the past three years. I remember the first times I did E and can remember the feeling so well yet after about six mnths it was different I was high but not with the same feeling :conf:. So I know how you feel in a way. I decided to take it easy and spread it out more. Now I may do it once every couple of months. Now when I do I enjoy it but I agree with alot of the people who have said that once it's gone it's hard to catch that initial feeling again of when you first started. Oh well. I still go out and give her and I still love that feeling of crashing in bed at about 10 or 11 in the morning with that beat still pounding in my head and a smile on my face.
Cheers
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It's all like ALCOHOL. The more you use, the more you can withstand it. I started of with 1 or 2 E's a night.That was like 5 years ago. But nowadays I take like 6 or 7 a night. And the feeling you get is hardly ever the same, main reason: The E's are never the same!!! |
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| StereoPrincess |
| quote: | Originally posted by !_PeTrUs_!
It's all like ALCOHOL. The more you use, the more you can withstand it. I started of with 1 or 2 E's a night.That was like 5 years ago. But nowadays I take like 6 or 7 a night. And the feeling you get is hardly ever the same, main reason: The E's are never the same!!! |
that's a lot of e's
i watched this anti-e propaganda video and it showed the death of this guy at a party and he did five e's and then he died convulsing on the stretcher and no one could do anything. i know that it wasn't the mdma he died of but just be careful. |
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| j_spot |
| quote: | Originally posted by Slylee
thank you for your encouragement and the compliment btw:) |
Hey..I dont give em out if i dont think they are deserved. Kinda like saying I love you, when really, I just wanna your brains out =) U r hot. Period! and u r 20...so m i...Nice.... =)
I mean, really, why inflate somebodys self confidence wiht lies? Because youd like to see them fall farther? Only a sick bastard would do something like that. I was once the kid who fell..and I wont do it to somebody else. Blunt and the truth...its how I like to tell it!*unless Im lying to my girlfriend..'no baby I swear, I didnt cheat on you, those underwear are mine' Trust me, that line never works* |
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| bluE_Neon |
| quote: | Originally posted by j_spot
Hey..I dont give em out if i dont think they are deserved. Kinda like saying I love you, when really, I just wanna your brains out =) U r hot. Period! and u r 20...so m i...Nice.... =)
I mean, really, why inflate somebodys self confidence wiht lies? Because youd like to see them fall farther? Only a sick bastard would do something like that. I was once the kid who fell..and I wont do it to somebody else. Blunt and the truth...its how I like to tell it!*unless Im lying to my girlfriend..'no baby I swear, I didnt cheat on you, those underwear are mine' Trust me, that line never works* |
:) :D ;) :p :cool: :eyes: :stongue: :D :eyes: ;) :p :cool: :stongue: :) |
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| !_PeTrUs_! |
| quote: | Originally posted by StereoPrincess
that's a lot of e's
i watched this anti-e propaganda video and it showed the death of this guy at a party and he did five e's and then he died convulsing on the stretcher and no one could do anything. i know that it wasn't the mdma he died of but just be careful. |
TNX for concerning, but I know that it does to me!! I live in E-counrty!!hehe. It's always a mixture of things when something goes wrong. Most of the E's here in Holland last for 2/3 hours. Some only can take a half or 1 a night. I'm a big guy (1m95 & 105 kg, pure muscle babe!!), so I have to take more than those tinny people :stongue:.:sadgreen:
GReeTZ |
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| u4ea:[soulstar] |
| quote: | Originally posted by Slylee
wow...where do i begin...u seem to really know ur . hehe i don't know about the writing thing when i'm xinging??? what is that? on "e" i'll assume. i call it "rolling". anyway, i definately will not be able to sit and write my feelings while i'm rolling...i have a hard time opening up like that...and besides, i always know what i'm feeling and why...i am very in tune with my thoughts and emotions...i just keep them all up in my file manager (heh, *brain*) and usually don't express them to many people....that's just me but i see all of you guys' points of view. u are all right...i have just done my share of "e" and it's time for a LOOOONG break. i will probably knock all that out for a while. besides....i don't want anyone to get me wrong...music is, and always will be, THE drug for me:) the "e" just opened me up more emotionally at first...it didn't open me up to dancing and trance/breaks, etc. i was already all about that before the drugs:D
sly |
Sorry for responding so late, but I do hope you read my post.
Yeah, I guess know my err shiznit. :D
As for handwriting, you don't need to write what's on your mind and heart. You can actually write anything on paper, the contents do not matter, just the writing style. Heck, just grab a book and copy it word for word on unlined paper.
I'll guarantee you'll noticed a degree of difference when your normal and rolling. Why? I did it and I noticed a HUGE difference in style of my writing when I was on mush/e.
The reason I offered such an odd therapy style is:
1. Graphology is a solid science that compliments, if not better than, psychology/psychiatry
2. Graphotherapy has been proven to help people with problems they can not overcome by sheer will or determination.
Your anxiety episodes is *that* problem, with possible long-term management that's needed to control it. With this therapy, you have a very good possibility of curing yourself of it, for good.
FYI, I am in the process of being my own guinea pig. It's going to be enlightening for me. So if I do noticed changes, I'll let you know. It'll be a good motivator for you.
Cross my fingers. LOL |
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| bluE_Neon |
| quote: | Originally posted by u4ea:[soulstar]
Sorry for responding so late, but I do hope you read my post.
Yeah, I guess know my err shiznit. :D
As for handwriting, you don't need to write what's on your mind and heart. You can actually write anything on paper, the contents do not matter, just the writing style. Heck, just grab a book and copy it word for word on unlined paper.
I'll guarantee you'll noticed a degree of difference when your normal and rolling. Why? I did it and I noticed a HUGE difference in style of my writing when I was on mush/e.
The reason I offered such an odd therapy style is:
1. Graphology is a solid science that compliments, if not better than, psychology/psychiatry
2. Graphotherapy has been proven to help people with problems they can not overcome by sheer will or determination.
Your anxiety episodes is *that* problem, with possible long-term management that's needed to control it. With this therapy, you have a very good possibility of curing yourself of it, for good.
FYI, I am in the process of being my own guinea pig. It's going to be enlightening for me. So if I do noticed changes, I'll let you know. It'll be a good motivator for you.
Cross my fingers. LOL |
hey TA DOC do u know if they have in da states a technology of MIND-SHARING? HEHE |
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