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do u belive in black magic? 'cos if it's not that i have no idea wtf is going on !
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| Xavier Moriarty |
it's been really emotional weekend for me, and i dont mean crying and i almost never do that, but just that im totally confused and have no idea what to do next.
and as i am thinking hard words from the past return and i got little scared (litlle and not scared but u know that feeling when u freeze for split of a second), "as long as u follow your hearth u'll never be happy with another one, God willing" - words of my ex circa 1993 after i told her that i have to follow my hearth, and broke up with her.
and here i am, 9 years have passed and i never tought about those words up untill maybe 5 minutes ago, while i was pondering what did i do wrong, and how the can this be happening.
but, u be the judges :
i didnt have a real relationship in the last 9-ish years, longest one was 3 weeks i think, it was all "yeah, lets , and have lots of fun, alcohol and drugs and lets some more", i have not once in those 9 made a connection with my better half. And its not like i didnt try, i went to great lenghts to correct my behaviour, my looks, my manners and , but after some time (some SHORT time) i would be like "what, she wants me to change for her, and what did she do for me (except give me some sweet, sweet jazz)" and that would be the end. And its not just them trying to change me (hey, sometimes change is a GOOD thing), then it became way that they looked, or smelled, or their behaviur in the clubs, or on the streets, their babbling and all sorts of little things. My last so called relationship (20 days + or - 2) ended cause she had couple of beers and got up on the table and started dancing, and then some "cool guys" made fun of her, and i had to make them apologize to her, disrespecting my girl (dancing on the table or not) is just like disrespecting me. And i really didnt needed all that fuss, so we neded it.
now, im not perfect, far from that but i have always imagined person by my side to be perfect, smart, pretty, my best friend, someone to whom i can say what i want, with big boobs. So i started thinking and remembered when was the last time i had that person by my side, i was 15, she was 15,we were young and innocent and and we were madly in love because we listened to our hearts. But then we got separated, and i became bitter and corrupted, i changed and i didnt hear voice of my heart any more.
Until i remembered.
And i started listening to my heart once again .
In the past year i have turned a new page in my life, i started thinking about future and i figured i had enough , and i should try that "domesticated" thing, im old enough for that. So i started looking around and listening.
I saw this girl checking me out for the past couple of months, but i was always "in the good mood" and was thinking "yep she's checking u out but also does she and she and she", all that trippy nonsense. But when she walked up to me last friday (freeland) and told me "well when u dont wanna talk, ill break the ice", i was really excited, i tought that she could be the real one, my heart also told me that. I got her phone # and told her i'll call her FO' SHO'. And then i lost it, just like that it, number was gone. But, I KNEW i'll se her this friday again, i just knew, and the only reason that i came to TO was to see her again. And i did. And the she told me "u didnt call me, i dont wanna talk to you tonight". Just like that. You'll probably think "ing biatch" but dont do it, i ed up, i made a promise, and i ed up, its my mistake and that's it.
That was a first.
I made a promise to go to boa next night so i did, we came to TO early and to kill time till 2 we went to a bar to get some beers. When i walked in i saw this waitress and she saw me and we had a moment. And i heard it again, and i knew. After some time (when it cleared up) she walked to me and asked me (and before that we didnt say a word to each other) "you're not from canada r u"? She knew me in less that 20 minutes, and i fell for her, hard. Now u'll probably think "how the can u fall for the girl in less than half hour"? I listened to my heart, simple as that. And we talked and drank and she wanted to come to boa to see me after her shift was over. I was happy, really happy, got her phone number and told her i'll call at 3:20. I remember, when u enter boa u have to empty your pockets in that thingie and i didnt take my eye from that piece of paper, put it back in the pocket that i never use so there would be no chance that it would fall out if i grab my smokes or money or whatnot. 3:15 came, im in the super mood, i reach for my pocket for phone # and its gone. Dissapeared into thin air, and im not crazy, i wasnt really drunk or hight at that time, i wanted to show my best when she arrives, and that ing piece of paper was gone. I panicked, thinking "what am i gonna do", i went outside to wait for her before 3:30, stayed there for at least 30 min, but she didnt show up. And why would she, i didnt call. I wanted to go to her workplace, but it was at least 4 am and i just said it, went back inside, had a blast, but i was sad.
It's still not over with her,i'll go and see her this friday, but i have a feeling that will be second one. You up you pay the price.
So, lets go back to the beginning of this story, I KNOW that there is no way that piece of paper could fall out of my pocket, i swear it just dissapeared. Can i be cursed or something? THERE IS NO WAY THAT PIECE OF PAPER COULD FALL OUT OF MY POCKET.
one thing is for sure, im buying cell phone, but with my luck i'll lose it too. As we Serbs say "third time even God helps you", so i have something to look forward to :).
sorry about lenght and spelling and grammar mistakes.
and please, if you dont have something nice to say, dont say anything, it may be funny to you but it's not for me, so be nice if i dont ask too much. |
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| Trancewave |
*yawn*
sorry, I fell asleep after "it's been an emotional weekend" part. |
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| DJ_Elyot |
That's so sad. I feel for ya man. If she blew you off cuz you forgot to call, then it's not worth it anyways. You don't want a girl who will dump ur ass cuz you lose her number.
Give the girl YOUR number. 2-way phone # exchange prevents your problem. Then if you lose the #, she can call you.
Other than that, good luck with the other girl... lemme know how it goes. |
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| Jayx1 |
| quote: | Originally posted by Xavier Moriarty
she told me "u didnt call me, i dont wanna talk to you tonight". Just like that. |
If shes that nasty about a stupid thing like a phone call then it's a good thing you lost the number. Just imagine living with a girl like that. UGH!
Get of your high horse....
As for the rest of the story. I agree. Exchange #s and then if she bitches you out you can just say "hey, u never called me either" |
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| PartEgurl |
I read the whole thing, it was entertaining !!
Definitly follow up on the cell phone idea, its heavier then a piece of paper, and wont *magically* disappear out of your pocket.
There is definitly some force against you, thats for sure. I am not sure if I believe in magic, but I do think that everything happens for a reason. You were definitly not suppose to call those girls, and maybe next friday you will meet someone much better.
Third is a charm, according to all this superstitious talk. Maybe the third number, that you will hopefully put in your phone book on your cell, is a keeper ! |
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| TheNeonAlien |
| you need Dr. Phil! |
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| DJ El Kay Dee |
| dont consider it black magic...just that happens....the more u believe that black magic is true, the more u mess urself up and subconciously MAKE bad happen to u |
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| Crazy Serb |
| that was probably some voodoo magic placed upon you by a certain Rogers/Telus customer rep... they want you to buy a phone! |
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| Miss Julia |
Things always happen for a reason. I guess it just wasn't meant for you to talk to those girls, and you'll meet someone better soon ;).
You can always go back to that bar and talk to her again. Hopefully she'll be more understanding about u not calling her than the first girl.
I know things are frustrating, and you're having bad luck, but you shouldn't have such a negative outlook on things (black magic). Just look forward to every day. You'll meet someone special when you least expect it! :D |
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| arek |
it is black magic.
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| d!abolic |
| Funny how it's the exact opposite with me. Last night i was digging through my glove compartment and found a piece of paper with a girl's number on it. This thing survived a 3-hour beach volleyball game in the pocket of my shorts, then 3 months in the glove compartment, even though i could have sworn i cleaned it out twice in that time! And i don't even remember putting it there - i added her # to my cell when i got to the car, so why the hell would i keep the paper? Same with another little post-it with a girl's email on it. I've already transferred the contact to Outlook and yet this damn thing just won't lose itself. Somehow, i still dug it up from under a pile of paper on my desk a month later, even though i thought i got rid of it. |
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