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| Halcyon+On+On |
I was sitting by my pool the other night in total solitude. I often do this, just to think about things and just relax with a pinapple soda in hand :happy2: I live away from the city, so when you turn your houselights off, it's totally pitch-black outside, save for the moon light. When I actually looked at the moon that night, it appeared quite blue. I know a blue moon is the second full-moon in a single month, but this was literally a blue moon. The moonlight shining down was no different than usual, but the moon, itself was blue in color. I think it was just an oddly-colored cloudy haze slightly obscuring my view, filtering the visible moon through some sort of chemicals (I DO live next to an experimental farm), but nonetheless, humans can only revel in the beauty of such an unusual occurence. As I stared into this anomaly, I thought about what dying truly is. I thought about how I would face the transition from this current state of conscious relativity and the world perceived by so many into the next world of uncertainty. I thought of my Grandmother. Reandom thought, I know, but how much in this world truly makes sense?
My grandmother was a very beautiful woman in her youth - polio scarred her face at a somewhat early age though, so she has lived much of her adult life bearing the mark of an insane world. I remember once seeing a picture of her in a flowing white sundress sitting atop of a verdant hill with a large, white umbrella in hand, wearing a large, white hat. She looked so very, very happy in those days, and it was a time that I knew nothing about but could somehow reflect on at an early age. Her house in California is often quite lonely, as my Grandfather works for much of his time - they rarely spek anymore, it seems. She is a very reserved and kind woman - not the kind that belongs in San Diego, it seems. Overall, though, it seems like she is epidemically depressed with her life - like she is just waiting to die. Every time she speaks to me, I can tell she is excited just to talk to me - I am her only grandson and she goes out of her way to make me feel special for it - it's almost as though the only reason she puts up with life is to be my Grandmother. Of course, this sounds quite presumptuous and selfish - but I can only express what I feel to be the truth in this matter. I know she doesn't have a long life ahead of her - especially when she wants to pass on - but I can't help but think of how she will live forever.
Here is the random thought:
Through this picture, she will live forever. I will remember her as she is, for the rest of my days, and I will reflect upon how she seemed to be in this picture of her wearing the white sundress. I bear her memory, I define her in a specific aspect - the aspect of her that is defined through her one grandson, that is. I will meet people in my life and I will remember them, just as they remember me. My essence is constituent upon my memory of her in a way, so when I share the memory of myself, it is as though she is living vicariously through the world of consideration. None of us are exempt from this - we are, in a way, one world, one entity. I share the memory of you as, in any respect, no matter how infinitisemal, you share the memory of me. In many ways, who you are as a person today is defined by the memory of everyone who has ever lived.
This is the random beauty.
Share something beautiful. It doesn't have to be about your family or about the moon, it can be anything just toally random about your life or about your day - just share something you truly, honestly, find to be absolutely beautiful. Oh, and please don't just joke around - if you think of something clever to say, please, either don't say it, or follow it up with something meaningful. |
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| D-res |
| quote: | Originally posted by Halcyon+On+On
so when you turn your houselights off, it's totally pitch-black outside, save for the moon light. |
you should have masturbated :toothless |
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| smokeape |
| quote: | Originally posted by D-res
you should have masturbated :toothless |
F*ck you D-Res! Halcyon's post was pretty deep. He was mourning a loss if you didn't realize it and elicited it quite dramatically. Damn good prose and couldn't have improved upon it myself...
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| D-res |
| quote: | Originally posted by smokeape
F*ck you D-Res! Halcyon's post was pretty deep. He was mourning a loss if you didn't realize it and elicited it quite dramatically. Damn good prose and couldn't have improved upon it myself...
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i only read that far when i posted, but now that i read the rest, im sorry man.... i agree with smokeape completely. deep d00d, deep . very....yeah. its.....wow
when my grandma died, i spent many a similar nights just pondering the world and our existence as humans. amazing what a beautiful full moon can do to the creative mind. |
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| Arbiter |
| quote: | Originally posted by smokeape
F*ck you D-Res! Halcyon's post was pretty deep. He was mourning a loss if you didn't realize it and elicited it quite dramatically. Damn good prose and couldn't have improved upon it myself...
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Agreed.
... and then he turns on the waterworks as soon as someone posts a little sarcasm in his self-pity thread. :rolleyes: |
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| Halcyon+On+On |
:o
This is going the wrong way. My Grandma isn't even dead. The point I was just trying to make is that, through the very idea of a person, we live forever. The randomness that something so meaningless as a serene picture of her could just encompass the very idea of a human being... it's just almost too much to handle sometimes. Whether we want to admit it or not, an important part of us lives on through the generations of this Earth because of our very presence. It's easy to get a very defeatist attitude about things and disregard the importance of an individual, especially when you're not revered by millions like most figures people tend to associate with nobility and beauty, but be assured in the fact that what you do in life has a profound impact on this world - whatever it is you do. If only 1 person remembers you when you were happy or when you were sad or when you were laughing or crying, you shall live forever through that memory.
This isn't a self-pity thread. I'm asking for people to share something that they find profoundly beautiful.
For example-
I was driving to school the other morning. The sun was just illuminating the pinks of the early-day clouds, inciting me to rise with the morning. I drove by an Elementary school and noticed some children running along the outskirts of a baseball diamond. That's it.
Random beauty in this world is so unappreciated. It is profound because it's so often overlooked. I'm hoping that, through this thread, people (including myself) might get some insight into how much beauty really exists in this world. That's all. :happy2: |
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| D-res |
i know she's not dead, but i was jsut using it as an example... as for something beautiful, i know i've posted this several times, but i find this beautiful:
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| smokeape |
You're absolutely sh*tting me.
Well, then if she ain't dead like I was led to believe, then let's drag the old whore out here and berate her for all she's worth!
Hahhhahaaaaa!!!! (Don't do that again...)
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Ian van Dahl - Time 2 Go |
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| Kakoroto |
| Alot of people here in Colorado Springs(kids mostly)really dont realize how beautful it actually is here. The sunrise and sunsets are simply the best I have seen anywhere. And with the mountains in the foreground litterally right next to us it makes it just perfect. I'll try and get some pics later. |
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| Halcyon+On+On |
| quote: | | Originally posted by D-res |
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A picture is worth a thousand words :happy2: |
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| Halcyon+On+On |
| quote: | Originally posted by Kakoroto
Alot of people here in Colorado Springs(kids mostly)really dont realize how beautful it actually is here. The sunrise and sunsets are simply the best I have seen anywhere. And with the mountains in the foreground litterally right next to us it makes it just perfect. I'll try and get some pics later. |
Ah, I lived in Denver up until just a few months ago. The silver linings on the clouds during the summer evenings were always the most beautiful that Earth had to offer, it seems. ;) |
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| Orbax |
btw, you need to replace pineapple fruity pants (or whatever that was called) with Senor Pineapple jawesome-O (whatever you were drinking with lots of vodka)
ok im gonna go read past that part though. DOnt call it drinking if you arent :p |
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