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ever get this feeling..... (pg. 2)
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| UWM |
| Dealt with that for about 12 months, but things are finally going in the right direction. Don't worry, things will work out for you too :D |
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| LeopoldStotch |
meh ..
i feel the same way too ..
i feel like a big person trapped inside a small box .. i sometimes think it is my overuse of internet time, and i should get out more and see random people walking .. other times, i think it is just stress, because i got 3 jobs .. :wtf: ..
but emotionally, i feel nothing .. i ignore everything that is around me .. i don't think about the world circulating around me, but myself circulating around the world, just looking at people pass by (just like felix da housecat's tune 'watching the cars go by' ) .. i enjoy doing that ..
i tend to be very anti-social and build an imaginary brick wall around me .. i don't know why .. i think it built little by little each day, when i was drowned with school work and work the past year, and not really interacting with my friends anymore .. most of the times, i just leave my cell phone on vibrate, and let my voice mail pick up my phone calls .. so when i check my voice mails, i can just hit the number '5' (delete) each time .. i kept telling myself that my work was more important that what was happening outside of society ..
should i blame myself for shutting out the world from my life ? |
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| Carriegsxr6 |
| quote: | Originally posted by lücid
thanks for the advice, guys. i'm typically a pretty easy going and happy person, but these last 2 months have just ed my head up so badly i don't know what to think anymore. it hurts but all i feel like doing is locking myself up in my apartment and ignoring everyone.
the worst thing is... i don't even know *why* things are going the way they are. i just moved into a new aparment 4 days ago and i thought life would get easier. i can't figure out why i keep hurting people and why i just keep getting more numb to my own emotions. i'm afraid when i can't cry and just stare blankly into space but i'm even more afraid when i lose all control and can't stop crying. for the first time tonight i was actually afraid of losing control of my own sanity... i've never felt like that before.
ok, i'm using TA as my outlet for anxiety right now. you lucky people get to listen to me bitch and whine.
meh, time for a cig. |
Life’s been dealing me some rough crap too for the past few months. It’s all starting to really get to me now. I think I have come down to the last few people that I haven’t pushed away yet, and I think they are next. I can’t help it though. When life deals me these bad cards, I just get so annoyed with everyone around me. It’s like I am mad at them cause they can’t get me out of this rut that I got myself into. I don’t know why I expect them to get me out of it, but I just do. And when they don’t I just get all mad at them and push them away.
Cheer up dude, its normal to feel the way you do. :toothless |
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| DJ RJT |
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I hope you are feeling better this morning hun... |
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| fitom tiel |
| quote: | Originally posted by DJ RJT
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I hope you are feeling better this morning hun... |
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| Clovis86 |
| Drink Pabst Myra, its never let me down... |
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| enferno |
*censored by myself*
i don't wanna be a cockfag tonight |
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| D-res |
hey lucid.. if you're still in mil-town, i'm moving there tomorrow (saturday) and you can stop over and we'll have a drink...
.. or whatever... :p |
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| Basstard |
| quote: | Originally posted by lücid
where everything is crashing down around you and nothing seems to work out the way you want it to? the things that used to make you happy somehow have become an evil force in your life just driving you into a deeper and darker place and you can't seem to figure out how to make it stop?
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i think you've just successfully described every girl I've dated
kudos :wtf: |
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| Slylee |
it takes an extreme amount of mental control and positive thinking to do this, but myra, you HAVE to train yourself to be able to channel all that negative energy into something positive. If things don’t work out the way you want them to, you have to accept it as something that simply was not meant to be. i’ve gone through this before where I made up my mind about something serious, and then it seemed like as soon as I put myself to the test and tried to make it happen, there were like a gazillion obstacles in my way and it was so frustrating, but I just kept on tackling them one at a time...
i don't know all the details of why you are feeling that way or what's going on (i have an idea though from what we've talked about a while back), so that's all i can really say.
people always gripe and say, "oh it's easier said than done, bla bla bla"
that's bull...you can do almost anything you want, and simply rising above some negative stuff in your life is child's play in the grand scheme of things. keep your head up and think positive...there is always something positive out of something negative and you don't always recognize it right away...be patient.
:) hope this helps... |
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| Moral Hazard |
| quote: | Originally posted by lücid
for the first time tonight i was actually afraid of losing control of my own sanity... i've never felt like that before. |
The good news is that if you think you're going insane then you are not. Insane people are not cognisent of their insanity.
I suffered from chronic depression for a very long time (in theory I still do but it is no longer a real proplem for me). It all finally came to head 7 years ago when I had a little bit of a breakdown. I felt very much the same way you described. Two things helped me... talking to a psychologist and adopting a new outlook on life (for me it was based on Nitzsche). I would highly recommend you talk to a psychologist, if nothing else it will provide you with a safe outlet. |
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