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Ode to a dead friend (pg. 2)
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| RavingLunatic |
Thanks. I really appreciate that Hazza. and I am talking about it, talked about it all last night with my friends. and it does help.
here's a story in our local newspaper about it:
http://www.southam.com/kamloopsdailynews/ |
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| DJ_Shockwav |
my condolances...
i two have lost a friend... almost a year and a half ago...
drunk driver... |
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| {b.s.e.} |
i lost a friend to drowning a few years ago. it was in cadets (don't laugh, i could march all over you) and we were going on a year end fishing trip. we had to cross this crazy running river, so our commander had strung a rope across and we were flopating everything across. my friend, dino, was swimming beside one of the rafts, keeping it upright, and the undertow sucked him under.
anyways, RL, i half-assed know what your dealing with..heh..not really..but you seem like a guy who will bounce back. take it easy for a bit, and smoke some mad weed. :)
harley |
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| tranceDJ |
dude, weed is all right for partying and everything but I would never suggest it to somebody for helping with their problems. It really won't help the problem much, only temporarily put it off...it's better to do other things to help yourself deal with the problem.
I'm very sorry for your loss...:( |
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| RavingLunatic |
Thanks BSE.
and TranceDJ, I know you mean well, about the weed thing, and I appreciate your comment.
But BSE knows me (at least a little bit) and he knows I smoke weed that's why he said what he did.
In fact, I did go home, rolled up a big fat roach joint, and me and my friends hopped into my car and smoked it. As I sparked it, I said, "This is for you will, wish you were here" Maybe it might seem like a silly gesture to you, but it meant something to me.
And it wasn't to put it off either, I am not running away from this problem, burying my pain in marijuana. trust me this is too fresh and deep to bury anyway. the pot only made me more introspective and thoughtful, about the whole situation. |
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| Juricimo |
sorry to hear about your friend! i have never lost a friend or a family member, i feel very fortunate that i've never had to deal with someone death that was close to me.
mourn, give it time....time is the great healer...
take care of yourself
>JM< |
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| ta_wilson |
:( :( :( dude i wont pretend to know how you feel because i dont, but my deepest sympathies
stay strong and keep going |
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| Miss Proximus |
I also don't know how it must feel but I saw friends of mine go through this same pain....and therfore my heart is with you :(
I hope your heart will heal in time and that you can give your friend a special place in your own being.....good luck.... |
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| RavingLunatic |
For Will
I heard the news
sitting in my office chair
where you once stood
not 2 feet from me
I was lost
I didn't know how to feel
I've never grieved in my life, I don't know how
I guess it will be the last lesson you teach me
but it won't be the first
you taught me many lessons brother
in the short time I knew you
you taught me how to let my inner light shine for everyone to see
you showed me what true human kindness is
you inspired me to be the person I am
you may have passed on into the next life
but your legacy remains here with us
I can feel you with me still
I went home that night
still unsure of what to feel
I picked up your firestaff
felt the weight of it in my hand
and I knew what I had to do
I walked outside, and I knelt in the snow
I unwrapped your staff, it took a long time
I was never as good at it as you were
I stayed on my knees in the snow,
until my they hurt from the cold
until they grew numb
and until they started hurting again
We assembled your staff solemnly
We soaked it in fuel,
We held it over a candle to light it
it was never easy with that staff
you know that
I stood there hoping it would light
watching the stubborn flame lick the cold metal
Then, I remembered another lesson you had taught me
the power of the mind, and how to channel my energy
I Willed the flames to grow, to engulf the wicks
Then I watched my visualization come to life before my eyes
I felt you then
I felt you feeling what I was doing
and smiling that big smile of yours
Soon your staff was ablaze
I watched as it was spun, with power, with grace
and when it went out, I solemnly dipped it again
for it was my turn now.
I took ahold of it, and I could feel it humming with your power
It wanted to move, to trace beautiful circles through the air
I took off my jacket and shirt, and threw them aside
tonite, I wanted to be cold.
I took your staff, and I danced my heart out.
dipping and swirling and twisting,
making tracks in the snow, and through the air.
your staff is heavy, it dragged my body around as I spun it
I felt you then too. helping me.
I felt you dragging me around, helping me complete the rotations
I spun it above my head, as you had done so well.
I spun it between my legs, like you showed me how to.
I had been waiting to do that trick you taught me, in the snow
The one between the legs, where the staff just skims the ground
It was beautiful, I saw your face in the dancing reflections in the snow.
I will think of you every time I do that trick brother.
I will never forget you.
and when I was done, your wicks finally extinguished, my body limp from exhaustion
I dropped your staff to the ground from which it came
and I fell backwards into the snow
lying there, staring up into the sky
I took deep breaths, and told myself I wasn't cold
I wanted to feel what you felt
I wanted to know what it felt like to have my mortal body freeze
While my soul burned on in hot defiance of the elements
I layed there and felt the cold penetrate me,
felt my back go numb, my shoulder muscles cramp
and I feel that I know, at least a little
how you felt that fateful day in the lake.
Will, you were my friend and my brother
I know that you died unafraid of the next life
I know that you were at peace with yourself and god
I know you are still with us, in our hearts, and in our memorys
your legacy will live on.
and tonite, we will dance again for you.
Rest in Peace brother. |
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| Excite |
I know how you're feeling...i had two friends die in one moneth a few years back. It's ok to mourn and cry just don't linger on it too much. Eventually you need to focus on something else.
I heard the motivatinal speaker Tony Robbins say this the other day.
"Every 14 seconds someone dies, every 8 seconds someone is born." |
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| torontotrance |
Sorry for your loss but i would release it to poetry sites because gets the message of your friend's loss further. Besides.....i think you are really talented with poetry even in this tough time. See the way i look at it is that, out of everything bad that happens, some good comes out of it (difficult to realize but it is true) So think about it
Regards
Torontotrance |
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| Renegade |
Raving, let me just say first of all how beautiful that poetry was. I'm not just saying that because I feel that I have to, and I'm not just talking about the words you used or how you used them, but that poetry you wrote up there was so vivid and full of sincerity that I'd think it were impossible not to be moved by it.
I don't think I've ever lost anyone I've been close to, so I'm not going to patronise you by pretending I know what you're going through right now. I can feel your pain, for sure, but I have thus far been fortunate, in my short life, to have never had to go through that pain myself. It is not something anyone looks forward to going through, though, at the same time, it is inevitable. Just remember that you only feel this intensity of grief right now because of the love you so obviously felt for him while he was still alive. It may be small consolation, I know, but many people never feel that kind of love in the first place. What the pair of you had was unique, and what you shared was one of the few reasons I can think of in favour of human existence in this dark, cold, benign universe. What you shared was human, irreplacable, beautiful, and all too short. But at least you were able to experience it. Be thankful for it.
Remember the good times you had, write them down in a journal, save your photos. Those memories are invaluable, my friend, treasure them. If you can do this - remember the fun times and appreciate them for what they were - then his passing has a meaning. Take time to remember them - as I know you already have - and take time to grieve over them, and to grieve over his death. Grieving is natural, and I don't agree with anyone who says it's the kind of thing you should just abandon so as "to get on with the rest of your life". The grief you feel right now is testament for the love you felt towards your friend - don't lose sight of that. Don't stop grieving until you know you're ready.
I doubt that anything I could possibly say will asuage you from what you're feeling right now, and I don't expect it to either. I can only hope, that from such a tragedy - such a meaningless tragedy - you can reap some meaning, some understanding, into what it truly is to be human.
May he rest in peace. |
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