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| Dmatrox |
| quote: | Originally posted by TrAnCeAkI
I saw the most wacked out thing today... I was driving to work on the express way and all of a sudden we stopped and i saw 4 semi-s one in each lane and ALOT of cop cars so i thought it was an accident! but then i looked up and saw a man hanging from the bridge deciding if he was gonna commit suicide!!! we were there 1 hour! IF YOUR GONNA DO IT DO IT! DONT MAKE US PEOPLE SUFFER AND be late to work just cuz u cant make up your mind!!!There i had to get that out :) |
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| Arbiter |
| The weak always strive to be weaker. |
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| kirbtastic |
| quote: | Originally posted by Arbiter
The weak always strive to be weaker. |
its not being weak, its feeling overwhelmed or in my case it was just not caring at all. i just wasnt happy and i had no idea why, i had plenty of friends, a beautiful girlfriend and a pretty good home life (yea i had fights with my mother, but what high school kid doesnt) . i would find myself in the middle of a party looking around at everyone having a good time and would just wonder what was wrong with me, i should be happy ... i have everything that the average kid wants and more. something was missing though. i had absolutely no ambition towards the future. i didnt see the point in life, nor did i want to do the routine ... college > 9-5 job > marriage > kids. so i did it .. and when i awoke in the hospital they said the next day i went into renal failure and that their was a good chance i would be on dialysis for the rest of my life..but i recovered and i was labled as Bi-polar and was thrown on all types of mood stabelizers. they did not work at all and 3 months later i was back in the hospital. this time i did it better..i put myslef in a coma for three days .. they told my mother i was going to be a vegetable .. but i awoke again and was completely fine...so they put me on more pills and higher dosages...this time the pills "worked" great..i was such a f*ckin zombie that i had no desire to do anything, until one day i woke up 8 months later and relized that i wasnt me anymore and tried it one more time .. my mother always taught me "if at first u dont succeed, try , try again". i woke up again in the hospital and during my transport to the loony bin for my third evaluation a stranger said to me "Life is a struggle, its not easy and there is no rule book. to be successful in life you have to do what makes you happy, not what people expect from you"
that was it. it was just a simple sentence from a stranger that put it all into perspective to me. instead of surrounding myself with tons of "friends". i have a close knit group now of really good people who i can relate too and share experiences with. i love graphic design, and maybe people think im strange because i spend 12 hours a day on the computer locked in my home office, but it makes me happy when i finish a project or when i get a new idea. i still have my worries, but life has a way of working things out, if u put a little effort into it. everynight i go to bed and think to myself, I am proud of the person i was today, and i cant wait to get up tomorrow and become an even better person. and i dont take pills to keep me stable and by no means did i ever consider myself a weak person for having the feelings i did when i was younger. i actually consider myself a stronger person for overcomong them and becoming the person i am today.
so maybe i told way to much about my personal life, but if it helps someone then its worth it. just realize that if u are thinking about suicide...there are a lot of people out there that feel the same way and you should talk to anyone who u feel comfortable talking too about it. dont try to handle all those feelings on your own, there are also plenty of numbers [ 1-800-784-2433 ] for you to call if you are embarresed, they are completely confidential. Suicide not only effects your life, but effects the lives of everyone that loves you |
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| TiestoFanMatt |
| quote: | | its not being weak, its feeling overwhelmed or in my case it was just not caring at all. i just wasnt happy and i had no idea why, i had plenty of friends, a beautiful girlfriend and a pretty good home life (yea i had fights with my mother, but what high school kid doesnt) . i would find myself in the middle of a party looking around at everyone having a good time and would just wonder what was wrong with me, i should be happy ... i have everything that the average kid wants and more. something was missing though. i had absolutely no ambition towards the future. i didnt see the point in life, nor did i want to do the routine ... college > 9-5 job > marriage > kids. so i did it .. and when i awoke in the hospital they said the next day i went into renal failure and that their was a good chance i would be on dialysis for the rest of my life..but i recovered and i was labled as Bi-polar and was thrown on all types of mood stabelizers. they did not work at all and 3 months later i was back in the hospital. this time i did it better..i put myslef in a coma for three days .. they told my mother i was going to be a vegetable .. but i awoke again and was completely fine...so they put me on more pills and higher dosages...this time the pills "worked" great..i was such a f*ckin zombie that i had no desire to do anything, until one day i woke up 8 months later and relized that i wasnt me anymore and tried it one more time .. my mother always taught me "if at first u dont succeed, try , try again". i woke up again in the hospital and during my transport to the loony bin for my third evaluation a stranger said to me "Life is a struggle, its not easy and there is no rule book. to be successful in life you have to do what makes you happy, not what people expect from you" |
This is really touching stuff. Im glad u moved on with ur life, and i for one admire ur determination and proudness of where you are today:)
Matt
EDIT it didnt paste all of his post, so imagine i did paste it all:p |
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| TrAnCeAkI |
| Thanks alot man..that was really brave of u to say that here and i am positive you helped someone ... Good luck to you.... |
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| Spad |
| quote: | Originally posted by kirbtastic
its not being weak, its feeling overwhelmed or in my case it was just not caring at all. i just wasnt happy and i had no idea why, i had plenty of friends, a beautiful girlfriend and a pretty good home life (yea i had fights with my mother, but what high school kid doesnt) . i would find myself in the middle of a party looking around at everyone having a good time and would just wonder what was wrong with me, i should be happy ... i have everything that the average kid wants and more. something was missing though. i had absolutely no ambition towards the future. i didnt see the point in life, nor did i want to do the routine ... college > 9-5 job > marriage > kids. so i did it .. and when i awoke in the hospital they said the next day i went into renal failure and that their was a good chance i would be on dialysis for the rest of my life..but i recovered and i was labled as Bi-polar and was thrown on all types of mood stabelizers. they did not work at all and 3 months later i was back in the hospital. this time i did it better..i put myslef in a coma for three days .. they told my mother i was going to be a vegetable .. but i awoke again and was completely fine...so they put me on more pills and higher dosages...this time the pills "worked" great..i was such a f*ckin zombie that i had no desire to do anything, until one day i woke up 8 months later and relized that i wasnt me anymore and tried it one more time .. my mother always taught me "if at first u dont succeed, try , try again". i woke up again in the hospital and during my transport to the loony bin for my third evaluation a stranger said to me "Life is a struggle, its not easy and there is no rule book. to be successful in life you have to do what makes you happy, not what people expect from you"
that was it. it was just a simple sentence from a stranger that put it all into perspective to me. instead of surrounding myself with tons of "friends". i have a close knit group now of really good people who i can relate too and share experiences with. i love graphic design, and maybe people think im strange because i spend 12 hours a day on the computer locked in my home office, but it makes me happy when i finish a project or when i get a new idea. i still have my worries, but life has a way of working things out, if u put a little effort into it. everynight i go to bed and think to myself, I am proud of the person i was today, and i cant wait to get up tomorrow and become an even better person. and i dont take pills to keep me stable and by no means did i ever consider myself a weak person for having the feelings i did when i was younger. i actually consider myself a stronger person for overcomong them and becoming the person i am today.
so maybe i told way to much about my personal life, but if it helps someone then its worth it. just realize that if u are thinking about suicide...there are a lot of people out there that feel the same way and you should talk to anyone who u feel comfortable talking too about it. dont try to handle all those feelings on your own, there are also plenty of numbers [ 1-800-784-2433 ] for you to call if you are embarresed, they are completely confidential. Suicide not only effects your life, but effects the lives of everyone that loves you |
Great post  . It can't have been easy to write all that out.
Unfortunaly too many people think "depression" is just a word for "feeling down" but it runs deeper than that. It's a lot more common than people think and the best thing anybody can do for themselves is get help sorting it. It's got nothing to do with being weak, or even with the "importance" of the problems your facing; depression can make the smallest of problems seem huge and overwhelming.
People who attempt suicide don't want to die, what they really want is to live a happy life, but depression can take over to an extent where people can't see a way of making things better. They can't seem to make themselves happy and don't want to live like they have been. Sometimes they are scared of getting help because they are scared of what the future will hold if they do, or they are scared of the stigma surrounding mental health (some of the replies to this thread prove how ignorant some can be about it) and the reactions they might encounter.
But there are people who can help and as kirbtastic has shown, with a bit of courage it's not impossible to come out on the other side and lead a healthy, fullfilling life. |
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| Dmatrox |
| quote: | Originally posted by kirbtastic
its not being weak, its feeling overwhelmed or in my case it was just not caring at all. i just wasnt happy and i had no idea why, i had plenty of friends, a beautiful girlfriend and a pretty good home life (yea i had fights with my mother, but what high school kid doesnt) . i would find myself in the middle of a party looking around at everyone having a good time and would just wonder what was wrong with me, i should be happy ... i have everything that the average kid wants and more. something was missing though. i had absolutely no ambition towards the future. i didnt see the point in life, nor did i want to do the routine ... college > 9-5 job > marriage > kids. so i did it .. and when i awoke in the hospital they said the next day i went into renal failure and that their was a good chance i would be on dialysis for the rest of my life..but i recovered and i was labled as Bi-polar and was thrown on all types of mood stabelizers. they did not work at all and 3 months later i was back in the hospital. this time i did it better..i put myslef in a coma for three days .. they told my mother i was going to be a vegetable .. but i awoke again and was completely fine...so they put me on more pills and higher dosages...this time the pills "worked" great..i was such a f*ckin zombie that i had no desire to do anything, until one day i woke up 8 months later and relized that i wasnt me anymore and tried it one more time .. my mother always taught me "if at first u dont succeed, try , try again". i woke up again in the hospital and during my transport to the loony bin for my third evaluation a stranger said to me "Life is a struggle, its not easy and there is no rule book. to be successful in life you have to do what makes you happy, not what people expect from you"
that was it. it was just a simple sentence from a stranger that put it all into perspective to me. instead of surrounding myself with tons of "friends". i have a close knit group now of really good people who i can relate too and share experiences with. i love graphic design, and maybe people think im strange because i spend 12 hours a day on the computer locked in my home office, but it makes me happy when i finish a project or when i get a new idea. i still have my worries, but life has a way of working things out, if u put a little effort into it. everynight i go to bed and think to myself, I am proud of the person i was today, and i cant wait to get up tomorrow and become an even better person. and i dont take pills to keep me stable and by no means did i ever consider myself a weak person for having the feelings i did when i was younger. i actually consider myself a stronger person for overcomong them and becoming the person i am today.
so maybe i told way to much about my personal life, but if it helps someone then its worth it. just realize that if u are thinking about suicide...there are a lot of people out there that feel the same way and you should talk to anyone who u feel comfortable talking too about it. dont try to handle all those feelings on your own, there are also plenty of numbers [ 1-800-784-2433 ] for you to call if you are embarresed, they are completely confidential. Suicide not only effects your life, but effects the lives of everyone that loves you |
Wow :eek: Good story very inspiring. That should be a lesson for all of us. If at first you dont succeed, destroy all evidence that you tried. Thats my motto.
I hope you love life and live it :D |
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| kirbtastic |
well thanks, but im not brave, it was a little tough to type out because i only type with two fingers, but not because its difficult for me to talk about. i am not ashamed of what i did, its just another part of my life that shaped me into the person i am today. i feel there is no such thing as a mistake as long as you learn, unfortunately it took me three mistakes to finally get it.
suicide and suicidal thoughts are a problem that effect young people all over the world, its not limited to kids from broken homes or poor kids just like drug addiction or AIDS, but it seems to be a taboo subject that people do not want to talk about. by not talking about it, the problem will not be solved.
my friend asked me to speak to his little brother once, and the kid was just in shock, he couldnt believe that i went through that, he said he would have never pictured it from me. but i think it made him feel better that he knew he wasnt alone or a freak for having those thoughts. i dont know if the kid was actually going to go through with it, but he is still here and doing really well now. but who knows, if no one talked to him, he could have been another me, or worse yet, actually succeeding in taking his own life. |
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| StalkerElmo |
| Suicide = People that NEED attention, except when they do it, they get it for a day, then it's lost in an hour! |
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| kirbtastic |
| quote: | Originally posted by StalkerElmo
Suicide = People that NEED attention, except when they do it, they get it for a day, then it's lost in an hour! |
people who post stuff like this need need attention and only get it for the 10 seconds it takes to read an post back.
everyone needs attention, human beings are social creatures |
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| Spad |
| quote: | Originally posted by StalkerElmo
Suicide = People that NEED attention, except when they do it, they get it for a day, then it's lost in an hour! |
In one way you're right. Some people know they need help but can't even begin to comprehend helping themselves. So a lot of the time it's subconciously a cry for help and a way to get other people to take notice and help them help themselves.
If you see what I mean. |
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