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have you accomplished anything useful today? (pg. 3)
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| TranceGiant |
Since I just woke up here's my plan for today:
prepare Cornflakes
go to this police office and have a new driver's license released ( I lost my old one)
go to my mum's (dentist) and have my teeth checked
study for my oral exam in Latin (highly unlikely)
send out the b-day present to Israel
do a bit of running (highly unlikely)
spend hours here (highly likely)
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| montie |
| quote: | Originally posted by Zenchowdah
Time to go to bed.
What have I done today? Hmm.
My room is a mess.
Sat around.
Bored.
Who am I to complain?
I live in a nice house.
I am well fed.
My parents love me. They don't hit me or stub out cigarettes on my back.
I go to a decent enough school.
I'm not bullied, beaten, or left for dead.
I am not popular. I'm not Mr. Popular, but who cares?
Me? Nah.
Wait...
Maybe I do.
Just a little though.
When I think about it, I'm not too sure about my friends.
OK. So not friends. Just classmates, then.
But still friends, in a way.
So why is there that quiet when I enter the room, and sit at my desk?
Indetectable. Not even to the most sensitive equipment on the Earth.
But it's there.
Come to think of it, I'm not so sure about my parents.
Or parent.
My mom and I dont see eye to eye. I feel small. Who cares?
Me? Nah.
Wait...
Maybe I do.
Just a little though.
She does stuff for me. Makes me dinner.
Sometimes.
She's busy. Work is hard. Who cares?
Me? Nah.
Wait...
Maybe I do.
I sit here.
Suddenly I feel a burst of emotion.
Rage.
Quiet, silent, rage.
I want to scream. To shout. To tell my parents how I really feel. To tell my parents how I feel about my ty life. To blow my own ing head off. To be where I want to be. To hate. To hate myself. Why?
The one decision I had to make.
The one single choice. Not difficult.
I knew what I wanted.
I didn't have the guts to say.
To shout and scream and cry.
To pound my fists in rage.
I hate my Mother. I hate my Father. I hate my Grandfather. I hate my Sister. I hate Mike. I hate Bob. I hate Steve.
I hate Matt. I hate Stew. I hate everyone. Everyone in this whole godforsaken, pissy little world. I hate them all. I hate you.
I hate myself. I will spend the whole of the rest of my worthless, pissy little life regretting the one time when I had a choice.
Not for long you fat, lazy .
"Go to bed!"
I want to shout and scream and cry.
To pound my fists in rage.
I cannot.
Why?
Who am I to complain?
I live in a nice house.
I am well fed.
My parents love me. They don't hit me or stub out cigarettes on my back.
I go to a decent enough school.
I'm not bullied, beaten, or left for dead.
Tomorrow.
Tomorrow, I will wake up. Another day, but tonight's silent rage?
Forgotten.
But for now, I hate them. I hate them all. I hate them all. I hate them all.
Who cares?
Me? Nah.
Wait...
Maybe I do.
But just a little...
Who am I kidding?
Time to go to bed.
^I wrote that today. |
sounds like things are too easy. your too comfortable to make that choice. things changing is scary.
be thankfull for what you have. make some effort on your part to not hate your parents. be the iniciator. just because they don't know how to socialize with you doesnt mean you can't figure out a way to socialize with them.
make new friends. take on a project, make effort to do something interesting.
just my 2cents. your thoughts reminded me of my own in the past. |
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| Clyde77 |
hellll noo..
sat on my ass all day.:D |
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| tor8024 |
| quote: | Originally posted by Clyde77
sat on my ass all day.:D |
aah that's the stuff! :cool: |
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| Scorchio |
Read It, Learn It, Love It:
"How good it is to not do anything and then rest" |
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| TranceGiant |
| quote: | Originally posted by Scorchio
Read It, Learn It, Love It:
"How good it is to not do anything and then rest" |
been there, done that. for the last 12 months.
Nothing more self-destructive on earth, let me tell you that. First it will be fun and you'll see it as "freedom" or "independence" or whatever. Slowly but surely you will, however, get sucked into it, losing all visions and hopes, addicted to your own emptiness, self-pittiness. Just don't try it, it's like a drug. I realized that DOING (includig the negative byproducts as well) is much more self-fulfilling then thinking ABOUT doing or simply NOT doing.
that was my pathetic tuesday morning piece of advice :D |
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| surferfb |
| quote: | Originally posted by whiskers
did you pee your pants when you heard it? :D:p |
Nope but I couldn't get it out of my head for the rest of class. |
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| Mr.Mystery |
| I signed a contract. |
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| butterfly |
| this morning i went to a meeting and got my report approved. |
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| Spyder |
yesturday i accomplished to learn the first steps of jave, samaba, and chacha.. and today i was proud ofme self for making food and getting my work done on time ... so far that is.. we'll see as the day goes by wot will happen..
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| LiveTheDream |
| I have done nothing for 3 months, and am getting to the stage where i realy need to get out and get a job, bouse if i dont now, i will never do. But am not always lazy, as this is the first real long brake i have had for 8 years. School was hard for me:( |
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