*warning*
I have put my heart and soul into this, so if you have nothing nice to say, please don't say anything at all. This is a tough subject for me to write about.
Its been a long time since I have posted, I know a lot has changed, and a lot hasn't. I have been a TA for almost 5 or so years now, and this message is just a small thank you, to those who have showed faith in me.
Over the past 2 years I have done a lot of growing up. In the sense of experiences and in my actions. I have slowly crept away from "the scene", realizing what I was doing to my academic life, my family, most importantly myself and un-intentionally drifted away from many friends I would of wished to have kept. I know many of you have been there, watching over through it all, and I thank you all for still believing in me, when I didn't even believe in myself.
I have drifted away from the TA family, and when I think back, its one of my biggest regrets.
Exactly one year ago, I was not me, I was looking in all the wrong places for happiness. When it was standing right infront of me. I turned a blind eye and pretended it wasn't there. I have made my mistakes, and I am to this day living with the consequences.
I have finally caught up in school, though I'm redoing a year, I have made ammends with my family and actually feel apart of it now. I am working in an industry that I love.
It's weird that right now, at this very moment (when I should be finally "finding" myself and realizing where I want to be in my life) I'm feeling more alone then ever. (Maybe thats what made me come back, maybe thats why I'm putting this on a public forum)
I guess this is because in the past, I have found a kind of support, with the people I have met on TA.
What I loved most about TA 5 years ago, was that immediately I felt accepted and that people cared about me. I felt apart of something, though its "just a forum". TA and the people in it, made it more then "just a forum" for me. It was where people who had the same love and passion for music, would come together and share unforgettable experiences. Whether that was during a crazy dinner party, house party, bbq, cottage trip, or club event.
I guess what I'm trying to say is....to those of you who have always believed in me....and watched out for me.....thank you. You guys have meant more to me then you ever know. And I'm sorry for drifting away. I push away the people who care about me, to be close to the people who don't understand who I am. (that is incredibly cryptic)
I'm starting to ramble on.....
basically this is a mini cry for help!....cause I'm lost, and I'm sorry....to all those I have pushed away.
love
dannie aka tamiko
Invasionmix
Welcome back! :D Even though I haven't met you yet, I totally understand about meeting a bunch of TA's and having the same share in music... I've met a bunch of people on this forum that I talk to and go out with on an almost weekly basis and some of those times are the funnest times I had!
EvilTree
*special hug for dannie*
Silky Johnson
I'm not really sure what kind of help you're asking for, but I will commend your courage and say congrats on getting your life on track. :)
Jem_hadar
You have never lost me, hunnie, and you know that, LK.
I will forever and always be there for you in life and everything you go through.
You have my eternal support little one!! xoxo
May the universe bring you along the right path and I hope you find the happiness and contentness that you so strongly desire and deserve.
Never doubt yourself, hunnie. You are wonderful! :) :gsmile:
Jems
Mortyman
It doesn't sound like you are lost, but you are now recognizing your path.
Realize that TA is not what it used to be 5 years ago. Times have changed, and so have people, and if you think you've drifted away, you are not alone. Life is challenging, and it's the decisions you make that defines you... and it takes courage to write so openly on an open forum. So from someone that doesn't really know you, I like you already ;)
Invasionmix
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Originally posted by Mortyman
It doesn't sound like you are lost, but you are now recognizing your path.
Realize that TA is not what it used to be 5 years ago. Times have changed, and so have people, and if you think you've drifted away, you are not alone. Life is challenging, and it's the decisions you make that defines you... and it takes courage to write so openly on an open forum. So from someone that doesn't really know you, I like you already ;)
Hey aren't you suppose to be in Holland? lol Have fun there dude!
Mortyman
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Originally posted by Invasionmix
Hey aren't you suppose to be in Holland? lol Have fun there dude!
I fly out tomorrow :happy2:
zoogla
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Originally posted by _tAmiKo_
It's weird that right now, at this very moment (when I should be finally "finding" myself and realizing where I want to be in my life) I'm feeling more alone then ever.
I hear ya loud and clear, Dannie. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help! :)
DarkAngel
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Originally posted by _tAmiKo_
I felt apart of something, though its "just a forum". TA and the people in it, made it more then "just a forum" for me. It was where people who had the same love and passion for music, would come together and share unforgettable experiences. Whether that was during a crazy dinner party, house party, bbq, cottage trip, or club event.
That def includes the cottage '06 and an unforgettable time in Fort Lauderdale @ Wendy's and Revolution for ATB!
Far From In Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I may be in the shadows but you have my support.
DA
FunkyCrew
hi sweetie :) it HAS been a while :)
Ni-Cd
Good for you for reigning in your life and taking control--and props for putting your feelings out there on TA like that. I'm sure you'll find the support and comradery here on TA that you have found over the years, along with all the other special stuff TA brings to our lives. ;)
Will we see you on the dance floor soon?? Missing those slinky moves!
