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I'm a social retard, I admit it. How do I make friends IRL (not here) as an adult? (pg. 3)
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| Amduscias |
| quote: | Originally posted by Q5echo
gay bars. for real
even if youre straight you'll meet more of the friendliest deviants and wierdos you can throw a stick at.
watch out for the crackheads and tricks tho |
If he goes that route hes gonna have to wear steel undies |
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| Q5echo |
| quote: | Originally posted by Amduscias
If he goes that route hes gonna have to wear steel undies |
yeah, they do like the tight buns |
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| Krypton |
| iTranscendence is trancer-x alt. |
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| Amduscias |
| Spotted!, ATTACK! |
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| [N]ûk|êû[Z] |
| quote: | Originally posted by Akridrot
There IS something wrong with me, and I want there to stop being something wrong with me, which is why I find the insulting and flaming pointless.
I probably do need professional help, but not simple therapy. This is something far more complex than that.
I've actually been sent to a psychiatric hospital before in an ambulance for my mental problems. I went to get an STD test and while talking, I told the lady about the things I wanted to do to people and she immediately left the room and didn't come back for like 5 minutes. Then I see two big paramedics come in and she steps back out and calmly tells me "It's ok. Don't be afraid, they are here to help you. You need help." and later on I found out that I was labeled an E.D.P. or Emotionally Disturbed Person. They thought I was going to be a danger to myself and others.
My thoughts were so disturbing that I was seen by two different psychiatrists and both of them told me that I needed advanced therapy because I'm cognizant of how messed up I am but not completely in control. That's the reason I post ed up all the time, I can't control myself.
It's not to say I'm intelligent, just intelligent enough to be completely aware of my illness and intelligent enough to conceal it for the most part. But not intelligent enough to get rid of it on my own.
I am literally NOT in full control because if I was I would never post most of the that I do.
The psychiatrists told me that I needed things like group therapy and art therapy and that I should stay for a long time because I was intelligent enough to hide my problems (but only temporarily, only sometimes, never all the time) and cases like me are harder to work with because for some ed up reason I intentionally hold on to the disturbed part of my psyche and nurture it and it keeps growing and growing and I'll never be ing normal at this rate.
Even the ing psychiatrists told me that I needed more help than they were able to give. Why did they say that? Because I kept playing stupid ing mindgames with them and I even asked one of them if her was wet and if she wanted to molest me. I am not in control... and this is extremely upsetting.
Even the ing psychiatrists think I'm supremely ed up, she was visibly disturbed by what I was saying and I think she was even angry at me for playing games with her. I ing hate myself sometimes.
Why couldn't I have been born normal?!?!? :(
WHY COULDN'T I HAVE BEEN BORN NORMAL LIKE EVERYONE ELSE?!
Even recently, I was permabanned from a forum that my ex posted on because she told them about how I was psychologically/verbally (never physically) abusing her and I had a nervous breakdown on the forum and threatened to decorate her face with bullets. I was good at that forum for a while now everyone thinks I'm some kind of nutjob schizo predator.
I'm so scared and this is not even a joke anymore... I think I'm going to take the advice for once and seek some professional help because with the breakup and the drug binging and the ed up thoughts, I am getting worse and worse each year and I'm terrified...
I will stick around if anyone has any advice, but I'm just done guys. I'm done with this bull, I have a ed up life and I need some expert help from intelligent people... it has nothing to do with posting here, but my posts here are a good indication of how I'm doing... when I'm posting like this, that means reality is so bad that I can't even bring myself to conceal it...
But I don't want this to be my reality anymore. I want my reality to be normal and positive. I hope my life changes for the better, because I really want it to. |
i didnt bother reading all that, but im sure its just, 'ooh ive had a rough upbringing' etc etc etc.. i seem to recall seeing a lot of 'im ed on [insert drug name]' threads from you, and threads about how your ed on drugs again.
surely the drugs arnt doing you any good. so do you not think knocking them on the head is a good idea?
i used to be a biiig pill monster around 2001 time, for a couple of years all my 'reality' was, was how tangled i was gonna get this weekend, and that was all that i was interested in. i used to wear cyber clothes, spike my hair and put UV paint in it and on my face and go out to clubs looking like that, and it never occured to me that i looked like a right plonker. funny how drugs alters your outlook on reality like that. so jack them in for a few weeks, get em out your system and have a long hard think about what you feel like |
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| Sushipunk |
| quote: | Originally posted by [N]ûk|êû[Z]
how tangled i was gonna get |
| quote: | Originally posted by [N]ûk|êû[Z]
i looked like a right plonker. |
I love English slang :stongue: |
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| Halcyon+On+On |
| quote: | Originally posted by iTranscendence
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HEY WOW I LIKE 4CHAN AND IMAGE MACROS A ING LOT THEY ARE A COMPLETELY ACCEPTABLE WAY OF REPLYING TO PEOPLE AND THEY MAKE YOU LOOK LIKE YOU KNOW YOUR INTERNETS. |
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| iTranscendence |
| quote: | Originally posted by Halcyon+On+On
HEY WOW I LIKE 4CHAN AND IMAGE MACROS A ING LOT THEY ARE A COMPLETELY ACCEPTABLE WAY OF REPLYING TO PEOPLE AND THEY MAKE YOU LOOK LIKE YOU KNOW YOUR INTERNETS. |
WTF are you talking about. |
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| SuspicionVandit |
| Eating vegetables is eating |
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| Amduscias |
| quote: | Originally posted by iTranscendence
WTF are you talking about. |
only he knows |
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| iTranscendence |
| quote: | Originally posted by Amduscias
only he knows |
Oh I see, he's that guy. |
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| Lunar Phase 7 |
| quote: | Originally posted by tubularbills
wait, you live in NY and have this problem?
dude, i live in the ing middle of northwest oklahoma; and i STILL have friends. granted not many, but even in this po-dunk POS town, i still have managed to have a couple of friends at work. and even some down in the city.
how the can you live in a metropolis and not make friends? there HAS to be something wrong with you. |
that's because you are an adrenaline junkie.
you like sports drinks and action movies. |
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