First experience with death was this summer. And it was family and it was, well still is hard. So many regrets. Just not spending time , taking for granted they will be here forever. I honestly don't know if anyone gets over it. I just compartmentalize and talk to the wind.
wienerschnitzel
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Originally posted by Jarvmeister
Have a kid.
Then tell me you'd be happy to die in a few days, knowing you'd never see him/her grow up.
This.
My oldest just turned 8 on monday. My youngest is about to turn 4. Every year is just getting better for me. I've worked through a lot of and i'm really starting to like who I am.
OrangestO
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Originally posted by wienerschnitzel
I've worked through a lot of and i'm really starting to like who I am.
That's awesome! In many ways, I feel this is life's journey.
Viber
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Originally posted by PivotTechno
Let's see what this fellow has to say on the subject:
:stongue: haha this guy is ing awesome, can't believe i didn't hear about him before.
Here's another one:
PivotTechno
Look for his full length shows - there are at least a half-dozen out there.
AnotherWay83
throughout my life, i've always had older friends so i've been given the opportunity to sort of peek into the future, in a sense at least, to get a preview of what life 5 - 10 yrs from now will be like.
i'm also lucky because all of my buddies are single and seem to love it. all we do is chase , travel, discuss we find interesting and out there etc etc. i don't know how long it will last, for i've had a few friends who used to say "man, i'm never getting tied down" only to have the right woman come along, and before you know it, he's a punkass lil bitch neatly wrapped around her little finger :haha:
but anyway, more to the point of this thread - i think i'd be pissed if i found out i only had a very short time to go. unlike you, vivid, my life hasn't been nearly as much fun as i have wanted it to be (but by no means terrible or anything either), so i'm still very much on the quest to fill out my book of memories and adventures. it's only in the last few years that i've gotten enough financial independence to start traveling and living life as i see fit, so i'd like to think the best is yet to come...
Joss Weatherby
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Originally posted by Jon_Snow
While my comments might be a little harsh but you don't understand the history context of the situation. Without going into much detail, nou started it. I make a joke he gets butt hurt, licks his wounds for a week then looks at any opportunity to get back. Passive aggressive type.
You and I have had our differences but neither of us follow each other around looking to take pot shots. I'm compelled with nou to give him a well placed kick to let him know I'm getting tired at him nipping at my heels.
Seriously, what the are you on about?
Washley get a bit of his juice up your butt? Now you crazy too?
Zharen
I think I'm pretty much ready to go. Seems like I always spent my life being late to certain things and having to work myself in a frenzy just to catch up. Things like learning how to read or being able to tie my own shoes as a kid, I caught on slow. Wasn't very good at making friends or having a social life until I was in Junior High. Did the good student thing for a while in High School, rarely ditched class or went out all night with other teens. But by the time I hit 21, I was in dire need of something new and exciting and then I turned towards the parties and the all-nighters. But again I felt like I had arrived a little late to that life. I had a few older friends who had done a lot of crazy stuff in their late teens and were now just slowing down, so I had to meet other people who were a few years younger than me in order to be on the same page.
As the parties got wilder and the drug use got heavier, I just kept telling myself that I was making up for lost time, and that Life was fragile and any minute I could be taken out of the game and then I would truly regret missing out on all the fun I should have had earlier. But by doing so I lost sight of my goals and future. I was too caught up in living in the moment, I just squandered all my money away over the years, not just on the parties, but for also trying to help out my party buds here and there, mainly driving them to places they needed to go and normally picking up the tab for the gas. By 28 I was broke and jobless, and those people who I had helped out and who I thought would have my back when I needed them, were nowhere to be found. I suppose if I had started partying as a teen in my life, I probably would have learned that lesson much earlier, but again I was late.
Now I'm 31. I went back to school and earned my PhT Certification, which is now going to waste because I can't find a job in my immediate vicinity with it. I do have a full time job at a warehouse, where I now bust my ass at and have worked for almost a year. So far I've managed to earn back and save up most of the money I had blown through during my twenties. The future's looking a little more brighter for me and yet that same feeling of being late in Life and struggling to catch up is more prominent than before. As been said previously, I have felt my own energy and self-worth drained over the years. I've seen a lot and dealt with a lot now. I look back at most of the party and rave pics from the 00's and instead of bringing me joy, they just make me sad, since some of those people in those photos are either no longer alive, or they changed into addicts or manipulators and users. I know there are things I still want to do, like travel the world or get a novel published. But if I was told that I only had a few days to live, I doubt I'd be too upset over the news. I wouldn't go out happy, but I would go out with a little bit of dignity. At least death would be the one aspect out of this ineffectual journey that wasn't tardy. Some people would miss me, but they'd get over it.
MSZ
TA group suicide anyone? We could all write letters and listen to teisto - fly as we make it to the afterlife.
AnotherWay83
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Originally posted by Zharen
I went back to school and earned my PhT Certification, which is now going to waste because I can't find a job in my immediate vicinity with it.
if you don't have anything tying you down to your current location (family obligations etc) then you should just move. i did it before when i was 26 - moved from LA to NYC and it was the best thing i ever did. not only did it help my career a huge deal, i also became a better person for it. i've since moved back to LA, but i'm quite ambivalent about it and miss NYC alot. there's a pretty good chance i might move back.
i'm about the same age as you if that matters.
Jon_Snow
Zharen: Sounds like you've had a tough road. Take pride in your tenacity to overcome. Try not to look too far ahead or behind and you'll be ok. I admire people who make it through adversity and detest those who live off of other's generosity.
Joss Weatherby
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Originally posted by MSZ
TA group suicide anyone? We could all write letters and listen to teisto - fly as we make it to the afterlife.
