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F*ck this life
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| N|te-L|fe |
yes I know, another thread about that.. With everything I read here, with all the attempted suicides I've heard of, I have reached the point where I am just wondering what the f*ck are we doing on this planet? whats the point, what are our goals?? Be born, make the economy roll and face all kind of sh*t like money, diseases, people you love dying around you, and then die yourself... niiice! wow, what a purpose!! Ok I'm not saying I want to kill myself, but I am just so depressed right now that I cant find answers to those questions.. And for the first time in my life I had a knife in my hand 2 minutes ago and was just trying to find a reason not to end it right there.. but I know deep inside of me that I wouldnt have the guts to do it..
Here it is: I was forced to move to Ottawa last summer for work, and I honestly hate this city, it's just BORING, nothing to do..
secondly, the rents are waaaaay too high and I had to borrow money from my parents twice just to survive.. the thing is I was used to having more then enough money back where I used to live so I feel very low having to borrow money just to survive..
Third, I lost my car recently, freakin slippery road and had to sell the body cause the engine was dead, now I'm looking for something else and I dont have enough money to pay for something new right away..
Fourth, I am slowly loosing most of my friends by moving here cause I can't see them as much and long-distance are pretty costy
Fifth of all: Since I moved, I took a bad habit of eating to forget about my problems.. it cost me 40 extra pounds, wich doesnt help feeling well with myself..
I think I covered it all pretty much.. I am so tired of catching up, I feel like I'll never make it out of all the crap.. but above all, I think worst feeling is failure, feeling like you have lived all your life up to this point and arent satysfied with what you have, and seems to keep happening continuously
Well anyway I wasnt looking for any pity here, just had to say it I guess.. life can be a bitch sometimes..I already feel a bit better typing all that, until the next depression I guess...:sadgreen: |
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| wick |
yeah^^
why just move because of a job? whats the point? especially when it makes you depressed and you're not making much money
my advice:
quit ur job and go back home. |
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| N|te-L|fe |
| Well its kind of a very good job for my age and I am syndicated and permanent and all.. I keep getting told I am lucky to have it.. I always wanted stability in life so thats why I made the move.. |
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| DJ-Fuq |
| If ur not happy where u are ur wasting ur time, no matter what anyone says about ur job. Id move. |
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| blazed it |
hmmm just curious but are you a virgin?
i know sex is for procreation, but damn what a reason to stay alive!
i'd suggest you either move back since your so miserable or you can work out like a mofo drop the 40lbs and get some.
where is home anywaysS? can't you just like take a bus home every now and then? |
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| N|te-L|fe |
| quote: | Originally posted by blazed it
hmmm just curious but are you a virgin?
i know sex is for procreation, but damn what a reason to stay alive!
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Holy molly what does that have to do with anything?? No I'm not and I get plenty but it doesnt help my case in any way man...
and no I can |
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| RenderedDream |
| just move out of town.. the job..happyness is more important.. |
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| Coreesan |
| Life sucks, deal with it... whats with all this talk of suicide? FFS, you people are pathetic... |
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| chojin |
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| ahlamalek |
dude, they wanted me for a job in ottawack too, about 10K more a year easy + 10K more the next year. But I don't want to go anymore... ottawa is so ing boring, my friends are here, etc etc.
try finding a job back here in montreal and move back with your parents for the time being.
whats worse than being in ottawa in winter with no car? being in quebec city in winter with no car (my friend is there for a job too). and I understand what you're living right now. |
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| Misty Kitty |
The reason y we are here, is because we are. Thinks around in a big circle that words really can't explain they are too linear.
We certainly have to live with aspects of society and the way the world has evolved that we most likely could of improved upon in hindsight, hey ho we are in this day and age not that, make the most of it.
There will be down times for all of us, but without those we wouldn't know the good (that circle again). As far as i know we have one life and i'm damn well gonna be happy in it, it is a fantastic place this living i feel honoured to have it you should to.
I am sorry to hear that some things aren't working out for you, but it is up to you to make the changes for yourself and for the better. |
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| Strike |
| quote: | Originally posted by N|te-L|fe
Here it is: I was forced to move to Ottawa last summer for work, and I honestly hate this city, it's just BORING, nothing to do.. |
ouch
ottawa sucks :D
what's so great about the job if you're barely making enough to survive?
are you going to see promotions any time soon?
if not, then you're better off moving back and finding a new job |
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