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Romance... (pg. 4)
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| Vlad |
I guess the only peson missing in this thread is me. :clown:
Well I can safely say, no matter how my life twists and turns, I dont think I could ever be an to a girl. My level of respect for them is sometimes at an unnecessary high. Like, for example, when a situation arises when your with a girl, and you get that connection and that frozen stare that you know you should move in on... I never do thinking that, what if she doesnt want to - bad move, I know but its a nervous impulse that I have a really hard time getting over.
I think Ive publicized my life enough on here, so I dont need to get into details about that. :p
I am a helpless romantic, and I cant help it. I want to give my love everything in the world that I possibly could, in ways that no one else would imagine them, in places most wouldnt even fathom. |
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| bubbleravegirl |
im the last person who can talk about knowing what love is. I misunderstood the real meaning behind what a relationship was and took most of my bfs for granted...took infatuation and attention as LOVE as opposed to deep commitment and selflessness...and always said i wanted a *relationship* when deep down i just wanted to be with *someone* at the time but still be able to be able to do my thing.
alisa is right, just keep being the way you are, guys, and eventually the right person will just appear in front of u, without you even realizing it. after my 9 year relationship ended, i didnt think i even wanted a relationship and truthfully i didn't. but all of a sudden i met Drew and yes there were growing pains in the beginning but i eventually -- thankfully -- realized that I did want to be with him and *only* him. this is probably the first time in my life i really felt this way. and the feelings only grow stronger with time. so I am grateful everyday that I have him - and hope he feels the same way about me...
good luck to everyone, im hoping this all works out in the end. im sure that it will, for all u wonderful people...
<3LySs |
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| vtec junkie |
Much respect for sharing that with everybody Joey. That took alot of balls......maybe we can upgrade your handle name from bitchboy now.:stongue: :stongue: :stongue: Im glad we helped you through the rough times man. Thats what friends are for. :toothless
| quote: | Originally posted by BitchBoyNYC
WORD brother Dave!!!! Well said. Here's what I have to share with all of u. I can honestly say I've never been an when it comes to dating girls. I've always been the one to be taken advantage of like a sucker. I've been stepped on time & time again only to be gullable enough to get myself into the same situations over and over. I've been used & abused by just about everyone I've been with. It seems they like to take advantage of my openness and my kind and forgiving nature. However I just seem to always pick up and get right back on my feet again after each ordeal. Well, that is until the last person I was with screwed me royally.
I was with a girl from Jan. 1999 thru July 2002. During that time I became a father to a lil baby girl. I wound up getting a pretty good job working for ConEd(NYC electric company) in Jan. of 2000, 2 months after my daughter was born. During the first year of work, times were rough. Trying to support a family when making $11 an hour is no easy task, especially when you are the only provider for the household and bills accumulate to be almost as much as you make in a week. Anyway, there came a time in 2001,(after 9-11) where there was a load of OT to be worked and I began working 12 hour shifts 6 days a week. The more I worked, the more $$$$$$$$ I made, BUT the less time I spent at home with my family. This went on for months & months and I noticed that my ex & I were argueing more often, mostly about the fact that I worked alot and I was never home. You catch the drift. Finally, one day in April 2002, I was working the midnight shift and it was kind of quiet, so my boss decide to let me go home early at like 1 am. So I thanked him and went home. When I got home, I parked in my driveway and proceeded to go into my house. I made my way to the bedroom only to find my ex in bed with a mutual friend of our while my daughter was asleep in her bedroom which was next to my bedroom. You can only imagine what was going thru my mind at that point. I just wound going into my daughters room and locking myself in there and crying like a baby. I had never been so crushed in my life. My heart felt like someone tore it out inch by inch. We stayed living together for a couple of months after that but I just couldn't find it in my heart to forgive and forget that. Every time I looked at her, I felt like falling to my knees and breaking down. We decided that it was the best thing if she moved back in with her mother. She had no point in being around me. I loathed her and it just wasn't a good thing, especially since there was a little child around.
So then came the most painful day of my life. The day she moved out and took our daughter to go and live with her. Although I see my daughter all the time, the day she left was the worst day ever because it was the first time in 3 years that I walked into an empty house, and was not able to kiss my daughter goodnight. Wound up going to sleep hugging the pillow she slept with in her little bed for quite some time. Those next few months were pretty ty to say the least.
Now, things have settled down and all parties involved have gotten use to the situation as it has just become part of everyday life. I'm back on my feet again and looking back on it I can see it was the absolute correct decision to make. My daughter is happy, I'm happy and my ex is even happy and things seem to flow smoothly with the ocasional "bump in the road". I've made some great new friends on this board, and my lifelong friends I grew up with have become evryday parts of my life again. So in some way or another, whether some of you have known it or not, you have played a significant part in helping me get thru things. For that I express my grattitude and dearest thanks. So that is why I decided to share probably my most personal and innermost feelings publically on this board. This is me. This is why I got the nickname "BitchBoy" This is who & what Joey is about.
Thanks for reading/listening. You have no idea how good it feels to get this off my chest.:) |
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| Wazup8012 |
| quote: | | Originally posted by Vlad I want to give my love everything in the world that I possibly could, in ways that no one else would imagine them, in places most wouldnt even fathom. |
Understand what your saying, but don't be soo sure others cannot fathom what you are saying. You started out great but your ending pushes people away, by saying that no one understands. Get me? |
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| Wazup8012 |
| quote: | Originally posted by vtec junkie
Much respect for sharing that with everybody Joey. That took alot of balls......maybe we can upgrade your handle name from bitchboy now.:stongue: :stongue: :stongue: Im glad we helped you through the rough times man. Thats what friends are for. :toothless |
Yeah to Bitchman lmao |
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| Vlad |
| quote: | Originally posted by Wazup8012
Understand what your saying, but don't be soo sure others cannot fathom what you are saying. You started out great but your ending pushes people away, by saying that no one understands. Get me? |
Where in what I said did it say that no one understands? |
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| vtec junkie |
and it says.......
Good luck bestows upon you. You will get what your heart desires.:toothless :p :toothless |
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| Wazup8012 |
| quote: | | Originally posted by Vlad in ways that no one else would imagine them, in places most wouldnt even fathom. |
right there |
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| Miss Bliss |
| quote: | Originally posted by vtec junkie
and it says.......
Good luck bestows upon you. You will get what your heart desires.:toothless :p :toothless |
The night I met John I got a fortune cookie that said......
"You find what you're looking for. Just open your eyes."
:crazy: :) :crazy: |
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| Wazup8012 |
| quote: | Originally posted by vtec junkie
and it says.......
Good luck bestows upon you. You will get what your heart desires.:toothless :p :toothless |
yeah :toothless |
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| Vlad |
| quote: | Originally posted by Wazup8012
right there |
LOL... its figurative language. Take it easy. ;) |
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| Wazup8012 |
| quote: | Originally posted by Vlad
LOL... its figurative language. Take it easy. ;) |
NO everyone kill vlad :rolleyes: :stongue: |
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