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| Psy-T |
It's been (re)educational for me to watch how hard I whored myself to create a comfortable status quo for myself here.
Absolutely shameless. And while I can't genuinely be surprised at the general concept, to view it vividly like I have today and yesterday made me cringe in some cases. I justified those rarities by a 'means to an end rhetoric', but of course.
Unlike most n00bs that I've noticed, my goal was not to fit in with a particular subset or another of the population, neither to become a member of a so-called clique, but rather to get attention and be acknowledged.
The above was written mostly as a timesaver for myself for future nostalgy trips, so as to spare the less pleseant parts of the observation. Feel free to laugh at any point. :)
It's also been amazing for me to see how my rhetoric related crafts have improved over the last 4 years, aswell as my english communication skills, I'm pretty confident most of those improvements occured right here at the forums.
My personality was shaped to a great extent in basically everything aside from ethics here, I even found a role model - a person I'm actually jealous of and crave approval from (recently in more desperate forms than before), shouldn't really be hard for you to guess who, if you wish.
I don't have photo albums, I have a post albums, online here, and if TA was to dissappear: within a year or two, I believe I'd forget 4+ years of my life almost entirely. Somewhat sad.
But don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't have friends outside of this box, I have plenty. the reason I'd be forgetting those 4 or more years of my life in such an unfortunate event is that I'm leaving my friends to move to greener pastures in a year's time or so (combined with my dreadful memory, most of you know about).
For the interested, I could throw an explanation off the top of my head as to the reasoning for all this prioritizing of an online community over the offline community:
My offline life, or geopolitical world included about the same amount of oughts, or duties as any of yours, plus 3 years, amounting to some 17-18 years of highly limited freedoms, which aren't only socially approved, but also mandated in many parts of the world.
I just wasn't willing to go through the same process as my peers, so while I 'fought' in the outside world via cutting class, ignoring social hegemonies of many kinds, studying at the university while i was meant to be in a class full of retards (read: a normal classroom) reharsing the answers to a test, inciting miniature rebellions at boot camp, going AWOL, becoming a renegade, serving jail time, threatening rebellions at jail, "corrupting" my peers back in the army, and finally gaining the holy grail: being dishonourably discharged, I found the "online world" as a place in which to learn not only how to interact with my peers, but to create peers where I wasn't automatically granted them by the force of circumstances.
An admittedly overly simplistic explanation, but a viable one nonetheless.
A COR version will not be written by me if by anyone at all, the topic title should suffice.
Feel free to comment, coax further information, tell of your own history, or simply laugh - at my expense or otherwise. :) |
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| all-nite-freak |
| click was a good movie |
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| Googooly |
| quote: | Originally posted by all-nite-freak
click was a good movie |
whats hat got to do with this thread? |
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| chach |
| quote: | Originally posted by all-nite-freak
click was a good movie |
lol |
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| tranceDJ |
First of all I think it needs to be noted that your english is much better than a lot of the people who post here which is commendable for it being your second language.
Nothing wrong with an Internet forum such as TA being your escape...it offers the chance for you to creatively express yourself and contribute to a "community." You'll find however that it is in the end useless to "fight" the outside world although it is also better than to simply conform to it. |
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| Psy-T |
| quote: | Originally posted by Googooly
whats hat got to do with this thread? |
a way to deny me of the attention i most likely seek even with this thread, probably based on the first paragraph. |
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| tranceDJ |
| quote: | Originally posted by Psy-T
a way to deny me of the attention i most likely seek even with this thread, probably based on the first paragraph. |
Well even if you're attempting to attract attention I'd say the thread is much more worthwhile than saying "OMG it's 11pm on a Tues and I'm ed UP!!!!!!!" |
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| Orbax |
| quote: | Originally posted by tranceDJ
Well even if you're attempting to attract attention I'd say the thread is much more worthwhile than saying "OMG it's 11pm on a Tues and I'm ed UP!!!!!!!" |
Dont diss the drunk thread dude, step away. |
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| igottaknow |
| cliff notes plz. |
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| Slylee |
dude, we ALL post on here to "attract attention" to either ourselves as a whole, or at least our thoughts/opinions.
anyway, yea TA is a huge part of my life. not sure if/when i'll quit, but yea....thanks for the read, and umm, what was the point? i don't get it. :toothless |
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| tranceDJ |
| quote: | Originally posted by Orbax
Dont diss the drunk thread dude, step away. |
True, I don't know what TA would be without them. They add so much life and insight to the c0r. |
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