c0r version: I had to help make the decision to euthanize my dog tonight (he has been very ill for a while now). I've had him for 13 years, he's been a huge part of my life, and this is something I wrote that is probably emo and absurd but I don't know, it's c0r (I guess).
quote:
Tonight you being were held in my mothers arms and looked at me with the same doughy eyes you’ve had since you were but a youngster, and though as full of love as ever, the pain and anguish of your life was too great for you to hide, and in an instant I knew it was time to say goodbye.
You left the house and I spent two hours lying to myself as I cleaned your blood from the floors and cabinets. I knew I was only telling myself you would be coming home again, and that I was really just trying to remove any evidence of what happened here tonight as if it would somehow undo everything – like cleaning the mess behind would somehow allow my family and I not to have to deal with the fact that you’re gone.
When the phone call came, I knew the subject of the conversation even before I answered. I struggle to somehow sputter “You can’t think I’ll blame you for this. This isn’t easy, but you know how I feel. I just don’t want him in pain.” into the phone before it was clear neither party was capable of conversation, and the call ends.
I knew this was coming for a long time, my friend, and the moment I saw you walk out that door I knew it was the last time I would see you, but also swore that instant it wasn’t how I’d remember you.
You were the most loyal, caring, cowardly, loving, friendly, playful, and attentive/attention whores of a dog anyone could ever have asked for, and the last 13 years of my life have been blessed to have had you around. From the day you were brought home to the final Christmas we were fortunate enough to have you in our lives, we loved you, and your friendship and love in return meant the world to us each and every day.
Goodbye my friend, I only hope in the end you understood.
Sorry for the personal outburst.
The17sss
props for having the self confidence to pour it out on TA brother. Sorry about the loss :(
Yohan
sucks to hear:(
Lebezniatnikov
My family had to put our dog down in October, and it was really hard. We knew it was coming for a few weeks (sudden remission of cancer that had been treated a year prior), and it was still gut-wrenching.
I know how you feel bud - losing a dog really is like losing a best friend.
Frenchie
Sorry to hear this. My comforts and sympathy for you and your family.
I wont lie, I teared reading this.
RJT
It just happened so quickly. My parents came back and I have just never felt more awful for my Mom - he was her best friend, at her side every moment she was home, waiting for her when she was gone.
I'm just glad she too had the strength to know when to say goodbye.
Thanks for the thoughts everyone - just needed to vent a moment here.
Chimney
Take your portable music device this evening and go to a park and jog a bit. Really helps.
RIP
Cpt.Cocaine
Ugh, I hate hearing about dogs dying. :(
But at least, 13 years is a decent lifespan for a dog. He could've been mistreated, could've wandered into the street and got hit by a car before his 5th birthday, could've ended up on some chinaman's dinner plate, but he got a good life instead.
Lira
I'm sorry to hear that. At least he seems to have lived with an awesome family, such as yours :)
bas
Condolences Rob.
pkcRAISTLIN
im interstate visiting family, and its the last time i'll get to see my puppy before my pares put her down:(
sorry to hear RJT, its the hardest decision to make and im glad that decision won't be made by me.
