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Anxiety Attacks... (pg. 5)
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| DJ RJT |
Thanks for all the advice guys... I do realize I need to take care of myself, my diet is pretty good, I exercise regularly (daily), and I guess I'm trying to stop smoking as much pot... I just want these ing things gone, I want my brain to work normally again...
I'm so tired of waking up with a jolt, unable to control my breathing, and just scared to even get out of bed and deal with my day... I don't even know if that's the best way to put it... in any event, it's exhausting me completely... |
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| Goldenknight09 |
| i actually think i had one the other day probally due to the fact that it was my first week of college and i was already really really stressed... so anyways i wake up and my heart is jsut pounding like crazy and im drenched in cold sweat by this time im freakin myself out even more even when i moved my arms or legs it seemed like they were moving 10 times faster it was like nothin thats ever happend to me...to calm myself down i just gott in a hott shower and stood there for a while eventually it all went away.. |
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| Ian^ |
a few people may know bits of this, but here goes.
I've been struggling with them for nigh on 10 years now. A lot went on in my life, was being bullied due to a jealous teacher who when i was 10/11 and top of the class/school in everything picked on my weaknesses, exploiting them infront of everyone to get people to turn on me. He'd do it with 1 or 2 kids a year every year who were superior to him. It never bothered me as much at the time (my nana who also worked at the school once threw a full cauldron of hot gravy over him for it :D) but it set the seeds.
Moving onto high school, aged 12/13 it gradually got worse, kids having seen what he did, were doing it more & more themselves. It began to get me down, but I did my best to not let it. When I was 14, my grandad was killed after some cunts attacked him. They were smashing glass over his drive & the elderly neighbours so he went & had a word with their parents, nobody knows what happened ,but it messed him up so much that he literally got home & dropped dead on the doorstep. This took away my one good part in life. He used to take me swimming, to watch & play football in sunday leagues etc, and gave me a belief in myself. This dwindled afterwards as I struggled to come to terms with it, but seemed to improve a bit.
Moving on now to 1996, we were on the way to school (used to walk the 1.5 miles there with a group of about 10) and we got about 2 minutes away, and i suddenly started shaking, for no reason at all. when asked what was up, i said that i needed the loo, and ran over into the park which was closest place, went to the loo, and just sat there shaking for a while, before going into school a bit later. People started talking, poking fun at me, I got to the point where i left lessons every hour to goto the toilet, it was like i was needing to pee all the time. Of course rumours started, anything from the fact that I had piles to I was schizophrenic, and I became obsessive about things. I felt that tying my jumper around my waist calmed me down so i wouldn't have to leave as much for the toilet, that pulling at my nails helped too, it was nervous tendencies coming out. At this time, outside of school, it didn't bother me at all, i was still able to goto the park, into town, or whatever & was fairly ok.
This soon started to change tho, and with everyone getting on my back, i was put on my first medication, which was aimed at settling my stomach down, unfortunately it was paracetemol based & did some mild liver damage, making it harder for mine to work properly now. At the end I began shutting myself away more & more in my room, not coming out, and became really withdrawn to the point where I finished school doing 2 hours a day for 7 months, and not doing any coursework (which was 70% of the mark) and sitting exams alone in a room. Altho i did well on them, the overall 70% coursework mark ed things up. I tried to goto college, and by now was on a different medicine, this would be age, 17/18 ish now. I was getting side effects from the first medicine, and feeling really ill from it. I was then put on paxil, and my life pretty much ended at that point. I was a different person, but the anxiety attacks were becoming more frequent. After 3 yrs of becoming more reclusive, i had to get off them, they were killing me.
I went cold turkey to get off them, this involved about a month of severe sickness, not being hungry, going pale, falling down stairs as my equilibrium was t otally ed up, sleeping 20 hours a day or 0 hours a day, and all the time getting worse.
I was put on a beta blocker then, but i felt awful, my chemical imbalances were all over the place, and i'd have huge panic attacks, including ones where i'd just want to run, to hide, to just not be about, and I soon asked to come off them & onto 'citalopram' which has helped me a lot, but not a great deal. I'm having major anxiety attacks which have left me unable to go anywhere. I'm like a prisoner in my own house, and anything from here takes huge effort & sometimes sedation. I manage to get on holiday twice a year, but can't work or anything, so feel pretty low & worthless. Obviously theres no chance of a woman in my life like this, i have nothing to offer them. the panic attacks have got to the point where im really really sick whenever i have drs/dentists/any other appointments. What do I do ? well, fortunately i've met some good ppl here, and those who dont hate me probably like me. they come over once a year for a big bbq, and other ppl pop over at times too (coup & Jamie_)
it makes me feel human again, even if there's not a lot in common with them in lives, im still stuck 10 years back, and they're doing well for themselves. How will i get over these things ? I honestly don't know, it doesn't seem an option, i've tried the medications, hypnosis, herbal remedies, and nothigns worked.
when people laugh about situations like this, or trivialise them, just remember that for some of us, what seems the easiest tasks in life for you, are hell and a living nightmare. It changes you past being recognised, nobody i knew back then knows anything about the 'me' today, and in some ways im glad, cos it's scary. |
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| Ian^ |
| just to add, other symptons include sweating a lot (hot and cold) shaking, shivvering, feeling dizzy, sick, body twinges, a feeling of total weakness and breathing which gets so fast at times, it leads personally to the sickness bouts |
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| Orbax |
| I think echo is what permanently ingrained the need to quote people on TA |
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| Echo of Silence |
| quote: | Originally posted by Orbax
I think echo is what permanently ingrained the need to quote people on TA |
um ummmmmm
you say what?
Can you retype that Orbs so 'us' foreigners can understand?
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| Orbax |
| quote: | Originally posted by Echo of Silence
um ummmmmm
you say what?
Can you retype that Orbs so 'us' foreigners can understand?
;) |
get out of our country
haha i kid i kid
I meant that you, with your post removal system, made so many people start quoting you so they wouldnt have mystery posts the next day, that i think it just became habit |
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| Estella |
| This seems to happen to me a bit. Especially upon meeting someone new because I feel I have to "live up to my expectation." Or around a crush of sorts. My brain just... ceases to function lol. My thoughts race, rapid breathing, become a clutz, my underarms itch and yes... If i really like someone.. because my thoughts are racing so wildly, I may not be too "coherent." Then I leave thinking ldks;jfa;lkdfjALKDFJ;A GAWD DAMNIT STOOOPID BIOTCHHHCAKE!!!My friends can tell when im having some anxiety around someone, they can depict it now. That's embrassing it's so apparent hahaa. Oh well? What can we do? It get's the best of us! I think it's just about your mind taking back the reins, as Pink said. DON'T give in to pills! Gawd, you'd be on the opposite end of the spectrum, a numb stumbling corpse. Also, at least we feel! I've always thought if someone isn't a bit nervous, they don't care. Don't you think what your feeling is better than someone with that "hmmm durrr what? oh huh? I don't care, uhh." |
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| tiesto14 |
| quote: | Originally posted by Ian^
just to add, other symptons include sweating a lot (hot and cold) shaking, shivvering, feeling dizzy, sick, body twinges, a feeling of total weakness and breathing which gets so fast at times, it leads personally to the sickness bouts |
ya man i get that also
mine are mainly
- shortness of breath
- feeling dizzy (like someone is pushing and pulling me)
- chest pains
- a feeling of doom (like i am going to die)
i have been dealing with them for about 10 years also.....in the begining they were tough (first 5 years)...i found that when i was around people i trusted i didnt worry as much. Like if i was out with my girlfriend and had an attack they werent as bad as when i was clubbing with friends who i wasnt that close with. I would freak out and jus have to leave the place i was in...and it sucked.
Now i kinda brush them off.....i have been dealing with them for so long that i trained my mind to understand that i wont die and i jus need to relax for a minute or so. I wont lie though...when i get a relaly bad one (about every 5 months now) i will pop a Xanax to calm me...but it has to be a BAD one.
Ian have you ever made yourself really sick over them? Like get swollen glands and from such worry? Thats what happens to me from time to time. |
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| Slylee |
aren't there any normal people left? what the is wrong with everyone?
everyone either has
ADD
Depression
Anxiety Disorder
it's that pharmaceutical industry i swear... |
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| tiesto14 |
| quote: | Originally posted by Slylee
aren't there any normal people left? what the is wrong with everyone?
everyone either has
ADD
Depression
Anxiety Disorder
it's that pharmaceutical industry i swear... |
people have had these disorders for centuries....they just werent diagnosed.
Would you say to someone with a broken leg shake it off and you aren't normal? Of course not..disorders of the mind are no different. |
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