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How was your 2011? (pg. 2)
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| SYSTEM-J |
It was absolutely ing terrible, the worst year of my life by some distance. Had every kind of life problem there is at one point or another, and spent at least 11 months of it depressed. Drank too much, destroyed my health, contemplated suicide.
At least now it's over, and I'm starting to feel better. There are things in place that might possibly even make 2012 a good year. |
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| Sykonee |
| 2011 was the year Sykonee got his groove back. |
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| Vivid Boy |
I wonder what is the normal amount of times it is to think about suicide?
I never get to the point where im making a real decision about it. But the thought does creep in my mind from time to time. I wonder if its normal. |
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| Lira |
| quote: | Originally posted by Vivid Boy
I wonder what is the normal amount of times it is to think about suicide? |
Until my mid-twenties, I'd think about it once or twice a week. |
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| Guest |
I usually think "how many people will come to my funeral if I should die right at this moment?"
Bleh, that's prolly not normal |
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| Vivid Boy |
| do you ever just think if i blow my head off things would be so much better for the people around me. or what matter would it make if i just offed myself. The worst part is it would make no difference and it would really just up my family. Ive had friends die and killed. the truth is as time passes their existence matter less. you just kinda forget. A close friend was killed when i was 13 yrs old. I havent visited his grave in at least 6 years |
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| prolikewhoa |
i don't agree at all. i've had now 3 young people die in my life and i think about all of them on a consistent basis.
i've also never contemplated suicide. when i was little i was afraid of death. i've been severely depressed, but i've never wanted my life to end. |
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| jonSun |
| tier economy but sales were up 8%. not bad i guess |
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| Joss Weatherby |
I didn't contemplate suicide this year (I don't think at least) but damn the late winter and spring were just dark. Everyday it was just clouded over and dark, it wasn't even raining. If it was raining it would have been better, I find the rain calming and relaxing...
I just wanted to curl up in bed for most of March-June. It didn't begin to clear up till July and then we had a really mild summer (which is ok, but was still sort of odd).
Its the first time the weather here has really affected me at all. |
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| Vivid Boy |
ive had a good 9 friends, who were my age die. 2 even murdered. I think about maybe 2 of them from time to time. I am very social though, I make new and lose contact with friends on a monthly basis. I keep in touch with childhood friends and always try to make time for them but we get older and change interests.
WHat i am getting at is, I think because I've never kept the same group of friends and have lost friends and made new ones so quickly, I may be able to cope with death alot easier. |
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| Vector A |
| quote: | Originally posted by Vivid Boy
do you ever just think if i blow my head off things would be so much better for the people around me. or what matter would it make if i just offed myself. |
I think about this a lot. I often try to tally up the number of people who would care, and estimate how much they would.
| quote: | | The worst part is it would make no difference and it would really just up my family. Ive had friends die and killed. the truth is as time passes their existence matter less. you just kinda forget. A close friend was killed when i was 13 yrs old. I havent visited his grave in at least 6 years |
Yeah, pretty much. Three generations after you are gone, nobody will know or care that you existed. Almost certainly a shorter time than that, should you not have kids. But really, should popularity or fame be our measure of success? I dunno.
Think happy thoughts!
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| Lira |
| quote: | Originally posted by Vivid Boy
do you ever just think if i blow my head off things would be so much better for the people around me. or what matter would it make if i just offed myself. The worst part is it would make no difference and it would really just up my family. Ive had friends die and killed. the truth is as time passes their existence matter less. you just kinda forget. A close friend was killed when i was 13 yrs old. I havent visited his grave in at least 6 years |
I don't think I've ever thought about other people when I contemplated suicide: Just as I don't think "living for other people" is an absolutely awful idea, "dying for other people" doesn't really strike me as desirable unless you're somehow saving their lives in the process.
The thought I had in mind was: Is this the life I want to live? Do I want to live any life at all? |
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