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Dear Raul, (pg. 33)
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| MeLLyMeL |
| quote: | Originally posted by XaNaX
I don't get a chance to get on TA much anymore and I just saw this today. I'm totally in shock - I only knew DA from here on TA but I can see from all the people on here who knew him in real life and who are hurting that he really was a great person. RIP man, you are missed and peace to all those who are missing you. |
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@Ingrid - I write on his wall every anniversary.
It sucks that I continue to listen to music and I can't talk to him about any of the new stuff.
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I also can't believe how fast time has gone and soon we will be celebrating his bday :( |
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| MJM74 |
| quote: | Originally posted by LaMiLf
OH MAN...I have tried to stay away from this thread only cause no matter how much time goes by??? Thoughts are always present...it's sad to think that Wagner and myself were not in this pic cause if I am not mistaken this was the day we had to leave cause of the news that Wagner's mom had passed away. It's almost an eerie feeling to remember that day. I know you have had fun watching all of your friends have fun and remembering you at all the parties they know you would have been at!!! So in that I find my peace and serenity when it comes to thinking about you Raul!!!! Also I know for a fact you were overjoyed when your niece Janine finally turned 21 and downed the famous bottle you 2 were supposed to drink together :wtf:. She partied in your honor and lived up to the celebration.
I find it odd when fb suggests I should write on your wall or send you a msg. But I will always send you msgs, ones that I know you will always receive. Love you Raul and miss you more no matter how much time passes by, I hope you, my mom, and Wagner's mom are taking care of each other and make sure you show them how to party it up like only you know how too!!!
It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone. Rose Kennedy |
Actually Ingrid you had a baby shower that weekend. Wagners mom passed the bbq before this one. Construction on Hobie beach had not started yet. This was a few months after that.
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Melly I'm gonna keep this thread open til the same day it was opened last year. After that it I think it would be best to lay this thread to rest. His memories will always live-on on TA.
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| MeLLyMeL |
| quote: | Originally posted by MJM74
Actually Ingrid you had a baby shower that weekend. Wagners mom passed the bbq before this one. Construction on Hobie beach had not started yet. This was a few months after that.
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Melly I'm gonna keep this thread open til the same day it was opened last year. After that it I think it would be best to lay this thread to rest. His memories will always live-on on TA.
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| LaMiLf |
| quote: | Originally posted by MeLLyMeL
Totally :D |
I agree!
Ahhh ok Manny...I thought it was the same day as the whole Wagner thing. I know it sux we didn't make it to that one...what sux even more??? We were like 2 hours late to that baby shower!!! :sadgreen: Trust me I would have much rather had gone to the bbq!!! So we gotta make it up this time around!!!:D :toocool: |
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| LaMiLf |
| quote: | Originally posted by MeLLyMeL
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@Ingrid - I write on his wall every anniversary.
It sucks that I continue to listen to music and I can't talk to him about any of the new stuff.
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I also can't believe how fast time has gone and soon we will be celebrating his bday :( |
See even you have turned out to be a stronger person!!! Unfortunately loss will do that to you, no matter how much a part of life it is??? We will never get used to it!!!
I swear that between the 3 losses I encountered in 09? That I have developed a hard wall around my heart and it is getting harder and harder to show emotion. When I would cry during commercials,lol. Now...when I do break down? IT'S A HARD BREAKDOWN AND I WILL CRY FOR HOURS!!! I have my days!!! |
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| MeLLyMeL |
| quote: | Originally posted by LaMiLf
See even you have turned out to be a stronger person!!! Unfortunately loss will do that to you, no matter how much a part of life it is??? We will never get used to it!!!
I swear that between the 3 losses I encountered in 09? That I have developed a hard wall around my heart and it is getting harder and harder to show emotion. When I would cry during commercials,lol. Now...when I do break down? IT'S A HARD BREAKDOWN AND I WILL CRY FOR HOURS!!! I have my days!!! |
Oo man but for the first 4 months I was pretty down. Everything reminded me of him and I was just always breaking down. I think ASOT 450 (when Rank 1 played) was prob the last time I really cried.
But for what? These 3 and probably 4 months I have and will be fine - i got a bit teary eyed last weekend but I know his birthday until his anniversary is probably going to be another hard time for me.
I can't even imagine what u were going through. I know just finding out Wagners mother died made me cry at the BBQ. Then, to add your own mother to it all is just... I can't even think of how you do it. |
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| LaMiLf |
You never get used to...I still haven't!!! You just learn to cope and hope they are in a better place and that they are with you the whole time.
Until about a month ago...I was dreaming with my mom 3 to 4 times a week. My very last dream with her? She was waiting for me at her beauty salon's door with her smile as she always did. I walked up to her and inside, she was cutting a clients hair and I went up to her FINALLY HUGGED, KISSED, & SPOKE TO HER. I told her that I loved her and that I would miss her...to which she looked at me with a very confused look on her face. I then woke up and cried my eyes out, cause it was SO REAL that I was able to smell her perfume.
I haven't had a dream with her since, no matter how much I tell myself to do so. Cause I can induce my dreams and they are VERY VIVID AND LUCID ONES!!! Pero nada. My thought on it? Is that she finally crossed over and that is why she was confused as to why I said I would miss her. I am hoping I see her soon again, cause I miss seeing her in my dreams. Like I said...you just learn to cope and move on!!! :sadgreen: |
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| Vlad |
So Im on youtube... digging up trance classics... I stumble upon Rank 1 - Breathing (Coldharbour Remix)... and it says In Memory of DarkAngel... my eyes almost shot out of my head... this needed investigating...
ING ... Id feel like a total to not post something...
So... I met Raul... WMC 2005... I didnt read this entire thread, but Im probably the 1000th person that this amazing person drove to the airport and picked up and dropped off at the hotel... not only that... I got to Miami a day early... so I couldnt even check in, so he waited outside of the Sheraton for 10 mins while I got undressed and changed in the lobby of the hotel... then we hauled ass to Space where... I believe it was Mauro Picotto and Sven Vath spinning.
Its been a long time since, but jesus...
I hope him and Tony de Vit are bangin out the ch00ns up there...
RIP DA. |
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| Cloud |
oh i am shocked. I rarely post here anymore so I just saw this.
I used to talk with DA. We had long conversation about gaming.. he was one of the first TAs that i remember around here when i joined the forum. In the first days I thought he was a girl because of his nickname .
RIP buddy. :( |
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| FallingMoon |
Today makes 1 year since you've been gone. I can't believe how fast time flies.
I still miss you as if it were yesterday. I won't ever forget you & I hope you've found everything you were searching for.
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