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APOLOGY TO THE ENTIRE TRANCEADDICT BOARD REGARDING FRAUD - READ INSIDE FOR THE TRUTH
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| Spective |
I lost.
Im caught.
I apologize to everyone, but mostly, the 6 victims.
Here is the real truth.
I have been diagnosed with a 6 year long depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and multiple other issues that I’d rather not get into. I haven’t been able to feel life in the past 6 years. I don’t know how many of you know what that feels like. You probably don’t. Mainly because if you could know what it feels like, then you don’t know what its like not to be able to ‘feel’
Psychologists and Psychiatrists who are treating me, say that I engage myself in illegal activities – whether its driving a 110 mph on the highway, regardless of how many tickets ive gotten, or stealing from innocent people, or even worse, cutting my body up with a knife – its only because it’s a subconscious effort for me to generate endorphins and adrenaline, so that I can feel my body again.
I created this Stacey character, in order to gain trust. A lot of guys find it extremely attractive to see a girl know so much about music and DJ gear. Its like our big fantasy? Marry the hot DJ chick. I felt that it would be easier to manipulate the victims if I was a girl, than if I was a guy. Stacey is actually the name of a girl I was once in love with, but broke my heart, without even knowing it. There is no ex-fiance, there is no Nick, there is nobody but me. Its all me.
The victims are all thinking the same thing – "oh boo hoo you ing criminal, just because you have a ed up head and an even more ed up life, you decide to try making yourself feel better by ing up mine? YOU"
I understand the rage everyone here is probably feeling towards me. Ive felt that same rage. I was once screwed by someone on PayPal, when the company gave less attention to fraud cases. Its only been recently till the company toughened up, because of that bad press they were getting. I figured, hey if someone could screw me over, maybe I can screw someone else over.
Money makes me do crazy things. My therapist says that money makes me feel secure. If I have it, I feel better about myself. At the time when I first started with the schemes, they were small. In the case of the Powerbook, the guy did get a powerbook from me, but I advertised it as being brand new with a 1.5 ghz processor, and a 4x dvd burner. He actually got a powerbook, but it was used, 1.25ghz processor, and a 2x dvd burner.
Then I started pulling bigger schemes. In the case of d3020, he paid me $200 for some records. Then it started getting into much bigger things, like in the case of Tegu.
I know my word means nothing to you all, but you do have my word that people are getting paid back. DJThanh already posted that he got his payment, d3020 will be receiving his tomorrow, Scorpion’s money should be sent out tomorrow, and then Tegu and Jthorn, I need to deal with outside the board because their amounts are so much higher.
To the people who were actually supporting me, you guys did help me out a lot. It was you guys who made me want to just stop all the lies, and come clean finally. Don’t feel like you were naïve or duped, you guys are good people who helped me start thinking more rationally.
The stories I wrote were all true. The thing about me being in a hit and run accident, the thing about flying Markus Schulz to San Francisco and throwing a free all age party, all of it. Its true. I know that I am a good person at heart, its just that I do stupid things like this because of deep psychological issues that Ive already explained above.
Earlier today, I was chatting with a MOD, who has met me in Miami for WMC. I tried to get him to lie for me, and say that the IP match was a mistake. My biggest concern is that my name is attached to all this crime now, and it is circulating on the web. If you google my name, it pops up in the first few matches. I am worried about this haunting me for the rest of my life. I told him that I could no longer live with myself, if I knew I’d be branded a criminal for the rest of my life. I think that best way to put it is that its like the “glass-ceiling.” I look up and see the person that is good and honest, above that glass. But from now on, no matter how honest and good I am from here on out, I will never be able to reach that good person status above the glass ceiling.
Its sad, Arturo and I used to be good friends. I remember taking him out to Olive Garden in Miami last year for WMC. He will vouch that I typically am an honest, good person. As TorontoTranceAddict mentioned, I am fairly known throughout the electronic music industry. My reputation in that industry is as pure as a virgin. Many producers around the world, some of which are very well known, send me their tracks, sometimes a year in advance of its release because they know I would never betray their trust.
I just hope that eventually, you guys can all forgive me. Realize it was a mistake. I am going to pay for that mistake, but like I said to my friends today before I decided I was going to shoot myself…..The more people slag me and call me a criminal, the only more of a criminal I will become.
Who knows, maybe tomorrow I wont be alive. I still am very angry at myself about this. I called a guy I know to ask for a gun. I am probably going to be all night writing out a will. Maybe I can make it up to the 6 victims by distributing my records, dj gear, and my entire studio to you guys in my will.
I don’t know. I feel like I’ve reached the end of my road. I don’t want to keep walking on this rocky road.
I am sorry. I am so sorry. |
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| Elysium |
Hey Spective,
Not sure i understand the situation. I thought you ex commited
all of these scams not you. Now you are saying that you were all
behind it. Whatever the case, life is about falling down and getting
up again. From each fall we learn and move on. It seems like you've
tried to right the wrongs and set things straight. its all you can
really do. I dont think anyone could ask for more. I understand
people are angry. But, if they cant get past the fact that you are
doing things to set things straight then dont let it bother you.
its their anger speaking more than anything else and u need to
understand that. Life is a long road my friend, dont let the bumps
in the road slow you down. |
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| Michael |
If your expecting sympathy, your not going to ing get it from me.
It was pretty obvious right from the start it was Spective who was scamming - it's amazing how many people couldn't see that.
Would you have admitted the truth if it hadn't come out that your's and "Stacys" had the same IP address? I doubt it...
Reading through all the posts, i'm amazed at the deception and lies you told. As for your post above about mental illness or whatever, it just sounds like more lies to me. Although I think the words compulsive liar come to mind.
You have to understand that you cannot be trusted, and every word you say will be treated with suspicion.
Although I think you do have wires crossed in your brain mate if you thought you could bull an entire board.
Now instead of writing long posts on TA how about going out and getting some money and reimbursing these people?
To the people who were scammed, i would still notify the police. Dont'let a sob story stop you. As I said, he cannot be trusted, and I'm sure the police will want to have a word with him. |
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| Spective |
You are right. If I didnt get caught via the IP match, I wouldnt have come clean. Thats the truth.
The truth is also that the people would have still been paid. This can be verified because two people have trackings #s for their payments, one of which received his today.
The reason I was trying to cover it up, was because I was trying to protect my name. Now that this is all available to view by googling my name, anyone who might know me, or a potential employer, can see all this about me.
Understand that I was not trying to continue with the scam. The moment I came on the board posting that story about the ex-fiance, is when I gave up on the scam itself.
You dont believe me about the mental illness? Ok Michael, I'll see how you feel when I get home and take digital picture of my medication, which shows my name on it, and the type of medication. |
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| Cobolt |
| quote: | Originally posted by Michael
If your expecting sympathy, your not going to ing get it from me.
It was pretty obvious right from the start it was Spective who was scamming - it's amazing how many people couldn't see that.
Would you have admitted the truth if it hadn't come out that your's and "Stacys" had the same IP address? I doubt it...
Reading through all the posts, i'm amazed at the deception and lies you told. As for your post above about mental illness or whatever, it just sounds like more lies to me. Although I think the words compulsive liar come to mind.
You have to understand that you cannot be trusted, and every word you say will be treated with suspicion.
Although I think you do have wires crossed in your brain mate if you thought you could bull an entire board.
Now instead of writing long posts on TA how about going out and getting some money and reimbursing these people?
To the people who were scammed, i would still notify the police. Dont'let a sob story stop you. As I said, he cannot be trusted, and I'm sure the police will want to have a word with him. |
This is the first time I have posted in the mess but I would like to note here for anyone who read the whole thing through. He is paying back the people he scammed and some of the already received their funds. He is trying right his wrongs here.
Michael does make some good points that this guy said himself he has problems. Whether its true or not Its hard to say but I think the one thing that should happen here is people should keep the flame level down
and stick to a simple phrase we all should know and most of us ignore daily.
"if you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it"
I think especially in this case it would be a good policy to follow as in if Spective is not lieing and is looking for a gun to kill himself. I would never want that to happen, to anyone!. Especially over something like this.
While I am not someone who got scammed. Its a human being and while he has used up alot of people here and no one should trust him inregards to money, I would say that I believe his last post for the simple fact that it does not hurt me not to and can only be a good outcome if support keeps him alive and at the very least to right waht he has done wrong.
Negative statements here will only lead to bad things. The people who got scammed can make up their own mind about pressing charges.
To Spective:
Kudos to you for coming clean cause you are screwed here either way. If you didn't come clean they could prove it and alot of other people would just run. While your post may be fake and just be a pity plea, it doesn't matter to me and I bet to alot of people on the boards. and You should just pay the people back not do anything stupid and stand up to what ever other punishment is coming your way. |
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| Spective |
Thanks Cobalt. Again, I need to reitterate the fact that I iddnt do this because I am scared of law enforcement or believed threats that I would be sued, put in jail, etc.
I have no prior criminal record, and because of that, I would never be put in jail for something like this. Especially, since I am paying everyone back.
One thing I didnt lie about is the fact that I studied law. If you cant believe that, I will take a picture tonight of my law textbook that I said I was reading during the past few days to understand the legal situation.
All I want is that all the victims get ttheir money b ack and get closure to this whole situation.
Lastly, my post is not fake or a pity plea. It is the truth. I will even post a picture of my bottle of prozac later tonight when I get home from work. |
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| jthorn |
I'm surprised to see this post. Not by the facts that it reveals, which are chillingly similar to what I suspected, but by the fact that the scammer has openly admitted his guilt.
I can honestly say that I have, at this point, no sympathy for Shehryar. I have been caught in this mess for months now, and it's caused me frustration to no end. It is good that Shehryar has decided to confess his crimes, but that does nothing to exonerate him of them, nor does it provide any restitution to me. I am still out my money, not to mention a lot of time and wasted effort, and I am stuck with a damaged item that does not meet my needs.
I cannot and will not halt the actions I have currently set in motion until my money is returned to me, and even should Shehryar return my funds now I cannot guarantee that I will not pursue further action against him. I have given so many chances for him to make things right, and even though I am a very patient and compassionate person I am not sure I could allow him to walk away from all of this cleanly.
Shehryar, you know how to contact me. If you are truly repentent, then you know what you must do. |
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| Tegu |
exactly
do you have any idea what it is like to lose $900? much less $2300? |
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| Spang |
I dont know what the is going on in here anymore. Bull or not i dont know, but what i do know is that everyone has there own little or big demons they have to deal with in life and its how committed you are to dealing with it that will effect your future.
There is a big difference to driving fast to stealing over $3000 from innocent people. Yes you may be sick but im sure you can still tell right from wrong. I mean you were smart enough to get away from with for a while and cook up a pretty good story to back it up so you should be smart enough to pay all the money back aswell (maybe get a better feeling by doing that!!!)
All i can say is that dont go throwing your life away. You ed up..SO WHAT. Everyone does but its what you do after that matters. you obviously have talent in the music industry and respect from djs and producers out there so thats a start. Tranceaddict is not the be all and end all of life as we know it so who cares what people who will never see or meet your entire life say about you.
Just pay the money back and get on with life. You never know what might happen in the future. |
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| Spective |
Jeremey, like I have said, everyone is getting compensation. You know that I am being honest here because one person has already posted saying they recieved their funds. Tomorrow, d3020 will be making a similar post.
Like I said, I am not worried about "further actions that have already been set in motion." I know what the end result is going to be, and you arent going to be happy about it because you are going to feel like you wasted your time. But continue your efforts by all means if thats what empowers you and makes you feel like you are doing something ands tanding up for yourself.
Ia m not looking for your sympathy or your forgiveness. I am just looking to bring closure for everyone. That is it.
Understand though that since you refused my idea of you selling the powerbook for whatever you can get on eBay, and then me paying the difference to add up to the $2300 that you paid, it is going to take longer to pay you back since I know how to work more hours to pay you back an entire sum of $2300. You can say that it isnt good enough, that you will continue persueing your agencies, but liek I said , that doesnt mater to me. I am just going to conitnue working to get you the money. |
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| Spective |
| quote: | Originally posted by Tegu
exactly
do you have any idea what it is like to lose $900? much less $2300? |
Yes I do Christopher. Like I said, I was in a hit and run acciddent last year. THere was $4000 worth of damage to my car. Even though they know who hit my car, nothing has been done yet. THe judicial process is very slow in these type of cases. |
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| Spective |
| quote: | Originally posted by Spang
I dont know what the is going on in here anymore. Bull or not i dont know, but what i do know is that everyone has there own little or big demons they have to deal with in life and its how committed you are to dealing with it that will effect your future.
There is a big difference to driving fast to stealing over $3000 from innocent people. Yes you may be sick but im sure you can still tell right from wrong. I mean you were smart enough to get away from with for a while and cook up a pretty good story to back it up so you should be smart enough to pay all the money back aswell (maybe get a better feeling by doing that!!!)
All i can say is that dont go throwing your life away. You ed up..SO WHAT. Everyone does but its what you do after that matters. you obviously have talent in the music industry and respect from djs and producers out there so thats a start. Tranceaddict is not the be all and end all of life as we know it so who cares what people who will never see or meet your entire life say about you.
Just pay the money back and get on with life. You never know what might happen in the future. |
Spang, like its been said many many times. One person confirmed today they recieved their money. TOmorrow, d3020 will be saying the same thing. I am paying everyone back.
ALso, dont think that my desire to kill myself right now is just because of TA. I have been depressed for 6 years, and this just makes me feel smaller and more isolated. |
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