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Rehab (pg. 12)
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| MeLLyMeL |
| quote: | Originally posted by StanVoid
melly wadup. I'm probably going to Markus @ Pacha, we'll see. wat about u? |
same!
and I am going to S&T at love the next day.
Holler at your girl! u have aim or msn??
[email protected]
dnbchick - aim.
message me on either. |
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| tubularbills |
| quote: | Originally posted by L.E.N.
You should actually be feeling pretty good by now. I had a ton of energy by 3 weeks dry. I had to hit the gym to get my body tired enough I could sleep. Otherwise I was up all night watching the Military channel. |
dude, this is almost creepy! i FEEL GREAT!!!!!! i had an awesome day today. i gave my "step 1" presentation - talking about sadness and anger from early memories and then talking about what made me go down the path i was in the past 6-7 months. i wouldn't say it was a "huge relief" because i was feeling awesome before i even gave the presentation; but it still felt good.
i just ate some spaghetti - so i'm going to let that settle and hit up the gym later. i've been doing good in the gym so far. even if its weak workouts compared to what i used to do; at least its getting me on the right path.
I finish rehab next wednesday; and i'm going to PCS up to Enid, OK most likely the wednesday after that. so two weeks left in town.
I think i might check out some AA when i get up there. i don't know for sure. my old mentor told me he had to go to AA and it comes up all the time when he gets his security clearance rechecked every 5 years....even tho this happened 10+ years ago. but we'll see how things go.
I'm feeling awesome today. just an overall good mood. its been three weeks to the date from my last drink.
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| tubularbills |
| quote: | Originally posted by Aortik
Really, have you considered any contact sports? |
i'm 5'10, ~140lbs. contact sports would get me broken. LOL.
frisbee and raquetball are prolly my favs to play. |
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| L.E.N. |
| quote: | Originally posted by tubularbills
i'm 5'10, ~140lbs. contact sports would get me broken. LOL.
frisbee and raquetball are prolly my favs to play. |
Hockey.
I thought about continuing attending AA meetings but that wasnt where I was getting most of my help. It was the small group that had more of an impact. In AA I couldnt identify with most because I didnt get that far. The yearning for a drink, or hiding alcohol around the house, the shaking. I didnt have any of that to identify with. All it did was make me feel like I was in the wrong room. In hind sight it did make me second guess getting totally smashed in future outings but never comfortable enough to seek out meetings on my own.
It depends on the people that attend too. There are happy stable groups with occasional relapses but positive support and the depressing group that is loaded with drama. All those make you want to do is have a drink. If you find a good group that stick with it, I knew I was going to still drink after my classes so I never returned because I really couldnt help anyone there. They wanted me to return and sit in on classes because it was so easy for me to do the program. I just felt I didnt have the extreme envolvment with alcohol to get on the same level as most there. To them I was just a kid that partys too much on the weekend and can save myself if I wanted, where they lost the house,wife,kids,car,dignity and self control. |
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| tubularbills |
i liked the group that i'm in right now. but there's this stupid bitch who came in yesterday.
she claims she ed up and took Kadium by accident, not nexium. apparently, they're both purple pills and so she got loopy from the morophine and when she went to her pain management doctor, the guy said, "you need to get cleared by a psychiatrist before coming back" to make sure she wasnt actually trying to kill herself.
so she's here now, and she's ing everything up. she's so negative and won't shut up. "this place is the one that's loopy - not me. i just made a mistake, i don't understand why i'm here.... BLAH BLAH BLAH"
and she was arguing w/ the counselor dude right when i was supposed to do my presentation and she's like, "nothing applies to me. blah blah blah" and i'm thinking in the back of my head, "THEN SHUT UP AND LET ME TALK WOMAN"
she's like a goddamn Marla Singer, for real. even if she doesn't have a problem, and really did make a mistake and has to go through this Brentwood program, she can at least just sit back, shut up, and let people w/ real problems do their thing instead of interrupting it all.
she's fat too, but claims she used to be a beauty queen. i'm like, "lady you're a queen of something all right":haha: |
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| L.E.N. |
| I felt I didnt need to be there either, but talking like that wont get sympathy. Its a room full of addicts. The best bullters around. They wont buy excuses. Just gotta follow the steps needed to GTFO. The more you fight it, the more likely that the class will say you need more treatment. The sooner you submit the easier it is. |
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| tubularbills |
| quote: | Originally posted by L.E.N.
I felt I didnt need to be there either, but talking like that wont get sympathy. Its a room full of addicts. The best bullters around. They wont buy excuses. Just gotta follow the steps needed to GTFO. The more you fight it, the more likely that the class will say you need more treatment. The sooner you submit the easier it is. |
i'd rather her leave than see her stick around :o |
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| tubularbills |
done with day six. finish the course next wednesday.
there's this one bitch inthere that is totally a Marla Singer. she needs to get out of my therapy!!! :whip:
but otherwise, i feel pretty ing awesome. :toocool:
i had a meeting w/ my commander this afternoon when i got out of treatment. he gave me an "LOA" which is a "Letter of Admonishment".... which basically says, "you ed up - don't do it again".
but it wasn't typed out , because those don't follow you to your next assignment. so he says, "why bother writing one out, putting it in your file; when its only going to get torn up next week when you move anyway?" he said me volunteering to get the help i needed was more important than actual paperwork.
oh, and i found out that i was ranked #3 out of 16 Lieutenants in our squadron. YEAH! |
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| idoru |
| quote: | Originally posted by tubularbills
she's like a goddamn Marla Singer, for real. |
| quote: | Originally posted by tubularbills
there's this one bitch inthere that is totally a Marla Singer. |
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| tubularbills |
| quote: | Originally posted by idoru
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don't forget i have the t-shirt of that too, jackass:o |
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| Amduscias |
| day 6?? i lost track |
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| tubularbills |
| quote: | Originally posted by XaNaX
lol dude she is either full of or a complete dumb cvnt. i'm lookin at a kadian right now no way you mistake that for a nexium let me see if I can find a pic online if not I'll take one with my phone. ok here we go
kadian
nexium
yeah those look the same :rolleyes: |
LOL ING SKANK I KNEW THAT BITCH WAS LYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
day 7 down - she was annoying the crap out of me today. kept trying to give all her "wonderful" advice...then saying, "this place is stupid i don't belong here" i'm like, "lady, for 's sake , SHUT UP!!" i didn't say that, i just kept my mouth shut. i understand i can't control her thoughts and actions, so i just learned to ignore it.
"graduate" next weeke on wednesday! |
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